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Friday, December 9, 2011
Sunday, September 18, 2011
I really need you in my life but things ain't right.
Hey I went to the mall yesterday with Jason, and he supposedly got in the newspaper and made first place in a race and broke a record?
Cool for him.
I think I brought him down yesterday with my sadness.
I went to a funeral visitation for my neighbor Mr. Gary. :\ I hope he watches over me and helps me with my life.
The night before that, I was crying also because of Shalom Lor. He told me his final goodbye, and that he couldn't give me what I seek. Sigh.
It hurts a lot that someone you love more than anybody is blocking you and doesn't want to talk to you. I broke down in a house's bathroom, and fell down on my knees in the bathroom, just reading what he sent me. It hurt a lot.
Today is Sunday and not much is going on. I went to the library today and church.
I hope I get something in the mail tomorrow. I've been winning lots of stuff from online.
I don't know what I want from life. That night Shalom told me GoodBye and to stop talking to him, is the first night I was okay with suicide. I've never been truly okay with suicide, until that night.
I got this really pretty shirt that is striped black and white for the visitation I mentioned earlier, and some black slacks. The shirt is really pretty. :) I should go get more from JCPenny.
Cool for him.
I think I brought him down yesterday with my sadness.
I went to a funeral visitation for my neighbor Mr. Gary. :\ I hope he watches over me and helps me with my life.
The night before that, I was crying also because of Shalom Lor. He told me his final goodbye, and that he couldn't give me what I seek. Sigh.
It hurts a lot that someone you love more than anybody is blocking you and doesn't want to talk to you. I broke down in a house's bathroom, and fell down on my knees in the bathroom, just reading what he sent me. It hurt a lot.
Today is Sunday and not much is going on. I went to the library today and church.
I hope I get something in the mail tomorrow. I've been winning lots of stuff from online.
I don't know what I want from life. That night Shalom told me GoodBye and to stop talking to him, is the first night I was okay with suicide. I've never been truly okay with suicide, until that night.
I got this really pretty shirt that is striped black and white for the visitation I mentioned earlier, and some black slacks. The shirt is really pretty. :) I should go get more from JCPenny.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
11th Grade
11th Grade has started and I haven't been too happy to go back to school. My hardest class is AP Chem. but I really wanted that class because of the excellent teacher.
Looking back on my previous posts, I am still jealous of the girl Jeremy is dating, but knowing him and his gf are having problems has made me happier about my whole jealousy issue.
Also, I still do crave a cutesy perfect relationship... but perfect is impossible. I'm so jealous of all the cute relationship photos online and on Facebook...
WaterFront is coming up and I want to go see Jason Derulo, since he sings my favorite song "Whatcha' Say." Too bad i'm probably not going... Oh well, i'll go see my good friend Kyle on Saturday instead hopefully.
I made a new friend the other day, C.J. from New Jersey, he's pretty funny.
Life's still pretty blah, at the moment i'm sick, but no pneumonia which is good.
It's weird thinking how i'm going to turn 17 pretty soon, then 18. I don't drive still, or have a cell phone.
I'm still with Jason... saw him yesterday and we were both sick. I first saw him run in a race for the first time, he got first place which surprised me. We went back to his house and yeah.
To talk about food, there's this pizza called Digiorno's pizza and it's the best pizza i've ever had!!
Looking back on my previous posts, I am still jealous of the girl Jeremy is dating, but knowing him and his gf are having problems has made me happier about my whole jealousy issue.
Also, I still do crave a cutesy perfect relationship... but perfect is impossible. I'm so jealous of all the cute relationship photos online and on Facebook...
WaterFront is coming up and I want to go see Jason Derulo, since he sings my favorite song "Whatcha' Say." Too bad i'm probably not going... Oh well, i'll go see my good friend Kyle on Saturday instead hopefully.
I made a new friend the other day, C.J. from New Jersey, he's pretty funny.
Life's still pretty blah, at the moment i'm sick, but no pneumonia which is good.
It's weird thinking how i'm going to turn 17 pretty soon, then 18. I don't drive still, or have a cell phone.
I'm still with Jason... saw him yesterday and we were both sick. I first saw him run in a race for the first time, he got first place which surprised me. We went back to his house and yeah.
To talk about food, there's this pizza called Digiorno's pizza and it's the best pizza i've ever had!!
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Jealousy?
It makes me wish I was someone else, and not who I am.
All the relationships I see, the happy couples, makes me hate myself. I don't know why. xD
I feel like a stupid kid, compared to all the happy couples I see...
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Hello!
Heyy, it's been bugging me I haven't posted on this.
Alot has happened, nothing bad.
Things are going great with Jason. We've had 2 dates so far, one to the movies to see Hoodwinked 2 where i got tickled alot at, and then we stayed after school and sucked helium in from balloons on the baseball field area and it was so much fun! We plan to go see Kung Fu Panda 2 on Monday! :D
Finals are coming up, tomorrow I have a math final.
School has been great because of Jason :) We hang out all the time in the hallways and he hugs from behind alot, and all the crazy relationship stuff!
Agh <3 I adore him.
He's not going to be at school tomorrow, he's going to be with family for something religious.
A couple days ago, I saw Shalom and Michael at church. It was crazy. I was at Martha's grad party at church and I get up to get food, and I see Shalom and Michael standing at another table and I look at them and they looked at me and Shalom smiled and waved. I kept waving like a dork, ugh.
They say love never goes away if it's real, the person who thought that up is telling the truth, it doesn't.
I talked to michael in the youth room and it was crazy.
I know Shalom wanted to talk to me... but he didn't... he just sat there across from us a little bit.
Sigh, I miss them. Even if Shalom broke my heart.
Anyway, yeah yeah lol. I can't wait till Monday!! :)
Hm let's see..... Pizza dipped in Ketchup is pretty good!
Alot has happened, nothing bad.
Things are going great with Jason. We've had 2 dates so far, one to the movies to see Hoodwinked 2 where i got tickled alot at, and then we stayed after school and sucked helium in from balloons on the baseball field area and it was so much fun! We plan to go see Kung Fu Panda 2 on Monday! :D
Finals are coming up, tomorrow I have a math final.
School has been great because of Jason :) We hang out all the time in the hallways and he hugs from behind alot, and all the crazy relationship stuff!
Agh <3 I adore him.
He's not going to be at school tomorrow, he's going to be with family for something religious.
A couple days ago, I saw Shalom and Michael at church. It was crazy. I was at Martha's grad party at church and I get up to get food, and I see Shalom and Michael standing at another table and I look at them and they looked at me and Shalom smiled and waved. I kept waving like a dork, ugh.
They say love never goes away if it's real, the person who thought that up is telling the truth, it doesn't.
I talked to michael in the youth room and it was crazy.
I know Shalom wanted to talk to me... but he didn't... he just sat there across from us a little bit.
Sigh, I miss them. Even if Shalom broke my heart.
Anyway, yeah yeah lol. I can't wait till Monday!! :)
Hm let's see..... Pizza dipped in Ketchup is pretty good!
Saturday, May 14, 2011
I'm not sad anymore, blog.
It's been almost a week ;D And so much has happened.
I got asked out May 12th, 2011. <3 Which made me so freakin' happy. I got asked out in person too.
We went on our first date today! We went to the movie theaters to see Hoodwinked Too. Though, I personally enjoyed hanging out with him more than the movie! Best date ever... So fun.
The school week before Thursday was sickness. Ugh. I don't even want to talk about it.
But on Wednesday, he gave me a sprite from home. He's so caring!!!
On Thursday I did feel completely better in the morning though. :3 That's when he asked me out...
Blog, I think the reason I haven't written to you in a while is because I haven't felt the need to. I actually have someone to talk to. I haven't felt sad at all, especially with him.
Yeah, this post is pretty cutesy. I love it.
So Blog, I won't really be talking to you too much... maybe, maybe not.
At the movie theaters me and him got popcorn, a soda, and crunch chocolateee! He told me I was the first person he had ever shared a drink with... I asked him why and he told me that... it's because he likes me so much. During this first date, i've realized just how much I like him.
I actually can feel how much I like him.
You know what, I have something better to say other than what i've eaten that's been so delicious, so i'll end it like this blog. :)
Natalia & Jason. May 12th, 2011. So fantastic.
I got asked out May 12th, 2011. <3 Which made me so freakin' happy. I got asked out in person too.
We went on our first date today! We went to the movie theaters to see Hoodwinked Too. Though, I personally enjoyed hanging out with him more than the movie! Best date ever... So fun.
The school week before Thursday was sickness. Ugh. I don't even want to talk about it.
But on Wednesday, he gave me a sprite from home. He's so caring!!!
On Thursday I did feel completely better in the morning though. :3 That's when he asked me out...
Blog, I think the reason I haven't written to you in a while is because I haven't felt the need to. I actually have someone to talk to. I haven't felt sad at all, especially with him.
Yeah, this post is pretty cutesy. I love it.
So Blog, I won't really be talking to you too much... maybe, maybe not.
At the movie theaters me and him got popcorn, a soda, and crunch chocolateee! He told me I was the first person he had ever shared a drink with... I asked him why and he told me that... it's because he likes me so much. During this first date, i've realized just how much I like him.
I actually can feel how much I like him.
You know what, I have something better to say other than what i've eaten that's been so delicious, so i'll end it like this blog. :)
Natalia & Jason. May 12th, 2011. So fantastic.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Awesome Blog
Hello.
Today has been really cool! I went to church and first was a combined service which means everyone who goes to the church goes on this day! Then after that, there was a bunch of asian dances for mothers day to the Lao&Thai mothers. Then after that, there was a ton of food. SO GOOD.
But before we went to church, my family got ruffled up and were talking really loud to eachother about the whole going to church thing. I feel bad for my little sister. She was playing the piano... probably trying to ignore my family.
Someone told me they liked me today. I think it's really sweet, but i'm not interested in a relationship with him at all, but more of a really great friends relation to eachother.
Last night, I talked on the phone for a long time again with Jason. Quite funny actually xD
But afterwards me and my family fought about how no one calls me, but I have to call them. How they accuse me of chasing after guys. When they don't chase back. How my mom tells me no one wants to talk to me. How I tell my dad he's broken every single guy friendship they've ever known.
This just reminds me of the reason why I get depressed, my family.
So, I went into my room and cried and went to sleep after that. Nice night huh?
I wonder if this is Karma, or punishment for who I am. That my family makes me so depressed.
Today has been really cool! I went to church and first was a combined service which means everyone who goes to the church goes on this day! Then after that, there was a bunch of asian dances for mothers day to the Lao&Thai mothers. Then after that, there was a ton of food. SO GOOD.
But before we went to church, my family got ruffled up and were talking really loud to eachother about the whole going to church thing. I feel bad for my little sister. She was playing the piano... probably trying to ignore my family.
Someone told me they liked me today. I think it's really sweet, but i'm not interested in a relationship with him at all, but more of a really great friends relation to eachother.
Last night, I talked on the phone for a long time again with Jason. Quite funny actually xD
But afterwards me and my family fought about how no one calls me, but I have to call them. How they accuse me of chasing after guys. When they don't chase back. How my mom tells me no one wants to talk to me. How I tell my dad he's broken every single guy friendship they've ever known.
This just reminds me of the reason why I get depressed, my family.
So, I went into my room and cried and went to sleep after that. Nice night huh?
I wonder if this is Karma, or punishment for who I am. That my family makes me so depressed.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Yo Blog. Wazzup?
Heyyy blog. What's up? Today is Saturday and i'm not doing anything this weekend...
Last couple days have been alright at school :D Yeah. This guy Jason is really amazing and so nice. Making me smile too much!!
After the day I last posted to you, I haven't done anything. Haven't felt the need to, which is quite interesting haha. Maybe Monday (bleh. Mondays are ugly in the morning) I suppose. Depends I guess. See, I don't do anything if I know I have a test or something important between 8th-9th hour. haha. Whatever.
Anyway, yeah so my days have been great. Like, I think God has actually answered my prayers. I think he's sent me an angel. Someone so nice.... The ideal person :'D WE'RE GONNA BE THE BESTEST FRIENDS EVERRRR!!!!!!
Friday I didn't have church youth night. So last night, I spent more than 2 hours talking to him and it was the best phone call ever.
This weekend I don't expect much to happen. Probably watch more anime dvds (or the rest of them) and talk more to people.
Monday I heard i'm getting a surprise from Jason? Lmfao. I think my life is made of him now. xD
D: I just tore my lip skin now it's bleeding. Lol, whenever my lip bleeds, I press it against my hand every like 5 seconds to see how much it's bleeding. So my hand get's all these blood spots I have to wash off. Weird~
So hey, I figured out why my school and other schools have had lockdowns. I know the factual reason, drug dogs. My teacher said so, so yeah.
Hey so today I did go somewhere. My family and I went to Salvation Army and I felt poor, but that's okay. My sister and I got an Austin Powers movie at S.A. so it's all good hahahaha. Then I waited in the car when they all went into Aldi's and then we went to visit my parents friends for a little bit.
Then we came home, I watched the movie, and I ate a cup of asian noodles. So steamy and asian cup of noodlicious!
Last couple days have been alright at school :D Yeah. This guy Jason is really amazing and so nice. Making me smile too much!!
After the day I last posted to you, I haven't done anything. Haven't felt the need to, which is quite interesting haha. Maybe Monday (bleh. Mondays are ugly in the morning) I suppose. Depends I guess. See, I don't do anything if I know I have a test or something important between 8th-9th hour. haha. Whatever.
Anyway, yeah so my days have been great. Like, I think God has actually answered my prayers. I think he's sent me an angel. Someone so nice.... The ideal person :'D WE'RE GONNA BE THE BESTEST FRIENDS EVERRRR!!!!!!
Friday I didn't have church youth night. So last night, I spent more than 2 hours talking to him and it was the best phone call ever.
This weekend I don't expect much to happen. Probably watch more anime dvds (or the rest of them) and talk more to people.
Monday I heard i'm getting a surprise from Jason? Lmfao. I think my life is made of him now. xD
D: I just tore my lip skin now it's bleeding. Lol, whenever my lip bleeds, I press it against my hand every like 5 seconds to see how much it's bleeding. So my hand get's all these blood spots I have to wash off. Weird~
So hey, I figured out why my school and other schools have had lockdowns. I know the factual reason, drug dogs. My teacher said so, so yeah.
Hey so today I did go somewhere. My family and I went to Salvation Army and I felt poor, but that's okay. My sister and I got an Austin Powers movie at S.A. so it's all good hahahaha. Then I waited in the car when they all went into Aldi's and then we went to visit my parents friends for a little bit.
Then we came home, I watched the movie, and I ate a cup of asian noodles. So steamy and asian cup of noodlicious!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
I broke, but I broke happy.
This isn't good. I didn't break my promise did I? Because blog, it felt good. It felt dizzy. It felt fun. It felt happy. I felt so many things, and mmm was I glad. As my Facebook status said last night...
Monday, May 2, 2011
I could hear their smiles in the silence.
Hey hey! It's Monday Blog! WOO. Just kidding, today wasn't super great during school.
It was a regular Monday but it was a bit more social? I don't know, not really. I got home and I just felt this NEED to catch up with people, I love it when I feel I NEED to be social when i'm home. So I called up my "beyotches" aka, my good old friends from Auburn :) I talked to three of them on the phone, and all three of them told me I made their day.
I love and miss them so much.
Anyway, I also posted on their walls. I hope they talk to me once in a while, I sure do miss them :| I'm my old self with them haha.
Today i've talked tons with Ompo and other people! Love-love-lovedd it. I've made so many people happy today including myself. Such an accomplishment.
DISGUSTING THING ALSO TODAY. I hope my father doesn't read this. I found a porn magazine. I think it's his. T.H.E.F.U.H.K IT'S FROM 1991. LIKE WTHQHASAWIERJASR
My eyes, they're dead. I'm so disgusted. I hope I forget this.
Sorry to everyone xD
ANYWAYYY, I hope tomorrow is a good day and so on! I'VE EATEN SO MANY COOKIES TODAY! They were all chocolatey. And omnomnomlicious <3
It was a regular Monday but it was a bit more social? I don't know, not really. I got home and I just felt this NEED to catch up with people, I love it when I feel I NEED to be social when i'm home. So I called up my "beyotches" aka, my good old friends from Auburn :) I talked to three of them on the phone, and all three of them told me I made their day.
I love and miss them so much.
Anyway, I also posted on their walls. I hope they talk to me once in a while, I sure do miss them :| I'm my old self with them haha.
Today i've talked tons with Ompo and other people! Love-love-lovedd it. I've made so many people happy today including myself. Such an accomplishment.
DISGUSTING THING ALSO TODAY. I hope my father doesn't read this. I found a porn magazine. I think it's his. T.H.E.F.U.H.K IT'S FROM 1991. LIKE WTHQHASAWIERJASR
My eyes, they're dead. I'm so disgusted. I hope I forget this.
Sorry to everyone xD
ANYWAYYY, I hope tomorrow is a good day and so on! I'VE EATEN SO MANY COOKIES TODAY! They were all chocolatey. And omnomnomlicious <3
Sunday, May 1, 2011
A week to wait
I promised him I wouldn't do it. I promised I wouldn't for two weeks. This was a week ago, and i'm getting tired of not doing it. Maybe it's the boredom getting to my head, but it's no addiction no it's not. Not at all, for if it were an addiction, I would have already given in.
Given in to get high.
Not some pills or stuff. Syrup.
Anyway, tmi. I plan to go to the store and buy some next weekend. There's no after side effects when I do this kind of high, so it should be all good. Unlike last time with the pills.
This weekend was dumb. I didn't do anything fun. All I did was go to the library, and church twice. But yet, when I ask to go visit my boyfriend, you know, to see if I could make our relationship better... my family says no! They just don't want me seeing him.
They never want me seeing a guy. Except Shalom, but maybe that's because he was asian. I miss him so bad.
Who's Shalom? This guy I didn't technically date, but we honestly fell in love with eachother during the summer. I don't know if he loves me anymore, I doubt it. But I somehow still do... He's blocked me for months now, no communication with him for months now. Because, I suppose he's doing it for the good of us and his family. His family didn't like me I guess. I hope he misses me. He's in Minnesota.
Yep so, this weekend has been crap. This week will be the same routine. The same emptyness. Yet, with myself telling myself I have someone. Who I can't even freakin' see till probably next weekend.
I haven't eaten anything today but this cheesecake circle and cookies. Chocolate chip cookies my mom made... mmm. They don't really fill me up in my heart or stomach, but they're still pretty good. xD
Given in to get high.
Not some pills or stuff. Syrup.
Anyway, tmi. I plan to go to the store and buy some next weekend. There's no after side effects when I do this kind of high, so it should be all good. Unlike last time with the pills.
This weekend was dumb. I didn't do anything fun. All I did was go to the library, and church twice. But yet, when I ask to go visit my boyfriend, you know, to see if I could make our relationship better... my family says no! They just don't want me seeing him.
They never want me seeing a guy. Except Shalom, but maybe that's because he was asian. I miss him so bad.
Who's Shalom? This guy I didn't technically date, but we honestly fell in love with eachother during the summer. I don't know if he loves me anymore, I doubt it. But I somehow still do... He's blocked me for months now, no communication with him for months now. Because, I suppose he's doing it for the good of us and his family. His family didn't like me I guess. I hope he misses me. He's in Minnesota.
Yep so, this weekend has been crap. This week will be the same routine. The same emptyness. Yet, with myself telling myself I have someone. Who I can't even freakin' see till probably next weekend.
I haven't eaten anything today but this cheesecake circle and cookies. Chocolate chip cookies my mom made... mmm. They don't really fill me up in my heart or stomach, but they're still pretty good. xD
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Hewwo Blog
Hi there! On Thursday I went on a Field Trip to the Shedd Aquarium! That day was so much fun! I made new friends which i'm pretty proud of myself for. I also made a new friend yesterday, so every friend is great! :D Jason is one of the guys on the Field Trip and the next day I met this guy named Anjulion ahaha.
They're so funny. :)
I went to Youth Night at church last night and talked with Pastor Nounou about some stuff. Haha. He asked me about what I meant when I posted on FB I felt like I was dieing.
Today i'm going to the library... It should be alright.
Tomorrow I might see Sean. Maybe.
For breakfast I drank Hot Chocolate. Hot Chocolate is amazing.
They're so funny. :)
I went to Youth Night at church last night and talked with Pastor Nounou about some stuff. Haha. He asked me about what I meant when I posted on FB I felt like I was dieing.
Today i'm going to the library... It should be alright.
Tomorrow I might see Sean. Maybe.
For breakfast I drank Hot Chocolate. Hot Chocolate is amazing.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
I had tests :|
Ay. It seems the world keeps reminding me to talk to you.
Hey, last time I talked to you blog was before my dad's birthday! I have many stories.
Well, the next day after his birthday there was this Coffee House at church. It's like a party, with food, and it was for donating to Japan. This party was basically teenagers haha. It was fun, listening to music and stuff... until this chick messed with me constantly. Calling me things and all of this. So I started talking back and all this... she must of been half asian or something. So I was outside right? Like, I went outside and i'm standing and I see this shadow of a person come up to me. She swung her arm and tried to hit my face but I moved fast but she swifted my face, hitting my glasses and grabbing my hair in the process. She didn't let go either so I did what I was taught to do if you were to hit somebody. Make it worthwhile. I swung my arm and punched her face as hard as I could. BAM. Then I pulled her hair and did it again. BAM. Then I kinda ran away. Haha. But hey, at least I did meet my new favorite rapper/singer at the party. :) He gave me a CD and I listen to it all the time. Dayday Fasho.
What else did I do this weekend, hm. It was a four day weekend too. On Monday I went to see Rio with Sean! That was such a great movie. Honestly, I haven't been on a date to the movies where I didn't make out the whole time since 8th grade, until Monday. :|
Today all the 10th graders had ACT prep testing. 10th graders are so immature when they're bored haha. I feel like i'm a senior when i'm at Jefferson...
I'm still finding where I belong. During lunch. In classes. In groups. With people.
"He's my main boy, he's the one that I want, he's the one that I need tonight."
Last night wasn't so great. My grades came in the mail. I'm doing more than twice better than I was at Auburn Gifted... and no progress to my parents. They still pick on me just as much... and I think they've beaten me down to a new low. My self esteem that is. I just looked down or had my head faced down on the table when they lectured me and even the rest of the day.
Oh hey. Did I mention I got skittles from a girl named Rosie, since she heard I punched that chick? Skittles are Rainbowtastic, making me feel yummy.
Hey, last time I talked to you blog was before my dad's birthday! I have many stories.
Well, the next day after his birthday there was this Coffee House at church. It's like a party, with food, and it was for donating to Japan. This party was basically teenagers haha. It was fun, listening to music and stuff... until this chick messed with me constantly. Calling me things and all of this. So I started talking back and all this... she must of been half asian or something. So I was outside right? Like, I went outside and i'm standing and I see this shadow of a person come up to me. She swung her arm and tried to hit my face but I moved fast but she swifted my face, hitting my glasses and grabbing my hair in the process. She didn't let go either so I did what I was taught to do if you were to hit somebody. Make it worthwhile. I swung my arm and punched her face as hard as I could. BAM. Then I pulled her hair and did it again. BAM. Then I kinda ran away. Haha. But hey, at least I did meet my new favorite rapper/singer at the party. :) He gave me a CD and I listen to it all the time. Dayday Fasho.
What else did I do this weekend, hm. It was a four day weekend too. On Monday I went to see Rio with Sean! That was such a great movie. Honestly, I haven't been on a date to the movies where I didn't make out the whole time since 8th grade, until Monday. :|
Today all the 10th graders had ACT prep testing. 10th graders are so immature when they're bored haha. I feel like i'm a senior when i'm at Jefferson...
I'm still finding where I belong. During lunch. In classes. In groups. With people.
"He's my main boy, he's the one that I want, he's the one that I need tonight."
Last night wasn't so great. My grades came in the mail. I'm doing more than twice better than I was at Auburn Gifted... and no progress to my parents. They still pick on me just as much... and I think they've beaten me down to a new low. My self esteem that is. I just looked down or had my head faced down on the table when they lectured me and even the rest of the day.
Oh hey. Did I mention I got skittles from a girl named Rosie, since she heard I punched that chick? Skittles are Rainbowtastic, making me feel yummy.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Hey Blog
Hello! I haven't written to you (blog) lately because I guess I haven't felt the need to. Which is good, right?
This week I was terrified I was going to die because of a large amount of pills (to get high) and my heart and brain and all kinds of things. My pupils were HUGE, It was so effing scary. Like, these are my normal eyes -> ( 0 ) ( 0 ) SHUT UP THEY DONT LOOK LIKE BOOBS. But when I took the pills, they turned to (O) (O) . But I am alive and i'm glad i'm alive, I wouldn't want to leave the ones I love.
My dads birthday is coming up, so this allows me to show him some real love.
In the mail yesterday, I got a piece of chocolate for free. BUT GET THIS. It was in the shape of a house. SO COO ;D Also my dad's bday present I got for him came in the mail also, I got it for free! I hope he likes it.
Last night I decided to go out with someone. Just to try. He'd asked me before but... I don't know, It felt wrong. I'm still worried. I feel weird. I'll try it and see how it goes. :)
Me and him are going to the mall today haha. I have to also get my dad a birthday card, I hope I fine one that is great :D
Want to hear something kinda cute and oddly from The Chipmunks movie? I dreamt I didn't have a family anymore. *says in cute voice* Yeah, it was sad :[ I also dreamt before that, it was about how my friend Jeremy and his girlfriend were at the mall and I was with my sister and we saw them. Then my little sister was playing with him and his girlfriend got super mad. Pretty retarded.
Hmm my dad's making chocolate oreo truffles :3 They're for the church tonight, we're going to watch a movie! OREO TRUFFLES ARE DA STUFF :D
This week I was terrified I was going to die because of a large amount of pills (to get high) and my heart and brain and all kinds of things. My pupils were HUGE, It was so effing scary. Like, these are my normal eyes -> ( 0 ) ( 0 ) SHUT UP THEY DONT LOOK LIKE BOOBS. But when I took the pills, they turned to (O) (O) . But I am alive and i'm glad i'm alive, I wouldn't want to leave the ones I love.
My dads birthday is coming up, so this allows me to show him some real love.
In the mail yesterday, I got a piece of chocolate for free. BUT GET THIS. It was in the shape of a house. SO COO ;D Also my dad's bday present I got for him came in the mail also, I got it for free! I hope he likes it.
Last night I decided to go out with someone. Just to try. He'd asked me before but... I don't know, It felt wrong. I'm still worried. I feel weird. I'll try it and see how it goes. :)
Me and him are going to the mall today haha. I have to also get my dad a birthday card, I hope I fine one that is great :D
Want to hear something kinda cute and oddly from The Chipmunks movie? I dreamt I didn't have a family anymore. *says in cute voice* Yeah, it was sad :[ I also dreamt before that, it was about how my friend Jeremy and his girlfriend were at the mall and I was with my sister and we saw them. Then my little sister was playing with him and his girlfriend got super mad. Pretty retarded.
Hmm my dad's making chocolate oreo truffles :3 They're for the church tonight, we're going to watch a movie! OREO TRUFFLES ARE DA STUFF :D
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Nonono.
Hi blog. I'm going to talk to you before I do my essay for English.
Today sucked but was numbed out mostly.
Today, I got high.
I drank half a 4 fl. oz. bottle of Robitussin. That's 2 oz. That got me messed up more than any other syrup. Though, i've only tried one other kind, but still. So yeah. I did it before 3rd hour, which is Chemistry. The class my friend Hailey is in, and the guy I like, Garry. When it is 3rd hour I walk into class.
He had these funny shades. They were funny, but cute. Mysterious. So, I don't know if he was looking at me, or anywhere else. During class, my high begins to creep higher and higher. It feels good. When I turn my head it numbs my brain because my vision goes to slow to adjust to the speed of my head. It feels good. So, I guess Robitussin makes me feel happier than the other syrup. To the point where i'm smiling and laughing just because I feel happy. Not the kind of crazy "laugh at a piece of bread or a book" laughing. Just a more happier me. One that isn't afraid of anything really.
Class ends, and I can barely walk normal in my head. Probably, I was walking fine. My mind is racing a bit, numb. We're leaving class and I exit along with Hailey. Garry is in front of her.
Now look, i've never seen him TALK to any chick over the months i've adored him from afar.
HE TURNS AROUND TO HER while walking out the door and asks her "you're broken up with your boyfriend?" and Hailey replies "yeah he broke up with me." Now, what the heck. Why would he care, if he's not interested in her? So, I begin to wonder about that. So I asked Hailey "does he talk to you?" and she's like "no this was the first time" or something like that. My brain was messed up at that time.
During lunch, I see Garry and I see Hailey. Hailey's alone (I asked if I could sit with her, because she's my friend. She kinda shrugged me off and told me to ask her friends. I didn't want to bother.) and Garry is too. They sit at the same row of tables. He sits at the one at one end, and she sits on the other. In the middle of lunch, he gets up and goes and sits in front of her. So, i'm freaking out. And freaking out while high is not good. It's twice and bad than when you freak out normally. So, i'm like almost crying at my table (seriously.) because i'm worried he likes her. So yeah. If he likes her, I know she's not interested, but still. It kinda hurts. It kinda hurts because:
1- she just got broken up, and right after that, the next day, he seems to like her.
2- she complains on fb, but everyone loves her. I complain on fb, but eh, everyones like "why do we care" and they show that by not saying anything.
3- The main thing out of all of this, or to summarize all of this is... i'm not jealous of her, nor mad, or any other bad feeling towards her. She's my friend. But like, why does someone who's just as bad as me, JUST AS BAD, maybe worse because her life seems kind of bad, She's just as bad of a depression, maybe worse. Why does someone like THAT have more people giving her attention. More guys going after her.
UGH I DONT EVEN KNOW. Forget everything I said.
Hailey if you're reading this, sorry, forget everything I said. You can sympathize right?
I need to forget boyfriends. It's not working though :\
Yep. So, the guy I like probably likes her. Maybe. Not sure. I'll see in a few days. If he likes her, at least it's her and some chick I don't know. ^_^
I colored yesterday. They're really pretty simple pictures all over two pages. I like it.
I ate a banana earlier, it was nomnomlicious.
Today sucked but was numbed out mostly.
Today, I got high.
I drank half a 4 fl. oz. bottle of Robitussin. That's 2 oz. That got me messed up more than any other syrup. Though, i've only tried one other kind, but still. So yeah. I did it before 3rd hour, which is Chemistry. The class my friend Hailey is in, and the guy I like, Garry. When it is 3rd hour I walk into class.
He had these funny shades. They were funny, but cute. Mysterious. So, I don't know if he was looking at me, or anywhere else. During class, my high begins to creep higher and higher. It feels good. When I turn my head it numbs my brain because my vision goes to slow to adjust to the speed of my head. It feels good. So, I guess Robitussin makes me feel happier than the other syrup. To the point where i'm smiling and laughing just because I feel happy. Not the kind of crazy "laugh at a piece of bread or a book" laughing. Just a more happier me. One that isn't afraid of anything really.
Class ends, and I can barely walk normal in my head. Probably, I was walking fine. My mind is racing a bit, numb. We're leaving class and I exit along with Hailey. Garry is in front of her.
Now look, i've never seen him TALK to any chick over the months i've adored him from afar.
HE TURNS AROUND TO HER while walking out the door and asks her "you're broken up with your boyfriend?" and Hailey replies "yeah he broke up with me." Now, what the heck. Why would he care, if he's not interested in her? So, I begin to wonder about that. So I asked Hailey "does he talk to you?" and she's like "no this was the first time" or something like that. My brain was messed up at that time.
During lunch, I see Garry and I see Hailey. Hailey's alone (I asked if I could sit with her, because she's my friend. She kinda shrugged me off and told me to ask her friends. I didn't want to bother.) and Garry is too. They sit at the same row of tables. He sits at the one at one end, and she sits on the other. In the middle of lunch, he gets up and goes and sits in front of her. So, i'm freaking out. And freaking out while high is not good. It's twice and bad than when you freak out normally. So, i'm like almost crying at my table (seriously.) because i'm worried he likes her. So yeah. If he likes her, I know she's not interested, but still. It kinda hurts. It kinda hurts because:
1- she just got broken up, and right after that, the next day, he seems to like her.
2- she complains on fb, but everyone loves her. I complain on fb, but eh, everyones like "why do we care" and they show that by not saying anything.
3- The main thing out of all of this, or to summarize all of this is... i'm not jealous of her, nor mad, or any other bad feeling towards her. She's my friend. But like, why does someone who's just as bad as me, JUST AS BAD, maybe worse because her life seems kind of bad, She's just as bad of a depression, maybe worse. Why does someone like THAT have more people giving her attention. More guys going after her.
UGH I DONT EVEN KNOW. Forget everything I said.
Hailey if you're reading this, sorry, forget everything I said. You can sympathize right?
I need to forget boyfriends. It's not working though :\
Yep. So, the guy I like probably likes her. Maybe. Not sure. I'll see in a few days. If he likes her, at least it's her and some chick I don't know. ^_^
I colored yesterday. They're really pretty simple pictures all over two pages. I like it.
I ate a banana earlier, it was nomnomlicious.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Hey Blog :)
NO SCHOOL TODAY!! My school has a power outage, so I get to stay home for the day. Weird huh?
Not much has happened that is so great. I went to the mall this weekend with Kacie and a girl named Sarah. It was pretty cool.
I've been trying not to be so down lately and it's working well. :)
At school it's been the normal, but in Chemistry I have the urge to stare :| &&& my friend Hailey, she's really nice. I give her notes sometimes, and she writes back. It's pretty cute!
That's about it haha, this is why I haven't really talked to this blog for a while.
Fries from Charley's are hot hot hot.
Not much has happened that is so great. I went to the mall this weekend with Kacie and a girl named Sarah. It was pretty cool.
I've been trying not to be so down lately and it's working well. :)
At school it's been the normal, but in Chemistry I have the urge to stare :| &&& my friend Hailey, she's really nice. I give her notes sometimes, and she writes back. It's pretty cute!
That's about it haha, this is why I haven't really talked to this blog for a while.
Fries from Charley's are hot hot hot.
Monday, April 11, 2011
Will delete.
I can't keep quiet anymore. I've got to speak my mind. Garry, you are the hardest person i've ever fallen for. You have no idea what that means to me, or how much it means to me.
You're perfect in every way. You may think you're not, but everything about you is my type of perfect. It's become my perfect, you've become my perfect and everything about you has become my perfect.
I've never liked someone so much, for as little we have spoken to eachother.
I'd do almost anything you want, be anyone for you, but I hope I wouldn't have to be someone else for you, I wouldn't want to be fake. You probably never look twice at someone like me, but guess what? I bet no one you've met is exactly like me.
I don't want to explode my feelings for you everywhere, but Garry I think you can tell I got alot of great feelings for you.
I know what we talked about online last time, but i've taken months to think about what would happen if we dated. After those months, I still like you just as much as I did months ago and even more. Last time we talked, I declined to go out with you because you sounded like you didn't care if we went out, but I really wanted you to care. But if you really care and If you give me a real chance, and if you tried to actually date me, i'd try my best to make you smile all the time :) Give me a chance?
You're perfect in every way. You may think you're not, but everything about you is my type of perfect. It's become my perfect, you've become my perfect and everything about you has become my perfect.
I've never liked someone so much, for as little we have spoken to eachother.
I'd do almost anything you want, be anyone for you, but I hope I wouldn't have to be someone else for you, I wouldn't want to be fake. You probably never look twice at someone like me, but guess what? I bet no one you've met is exactly like me.
I don't want to explode my feelings for you everywhere, but Garry I think you can tell I got alot of great feelings for you.
I know what we talked about online last time, but i've taken months to think about what would happen if we dated. After those months, I still like you just as much as I did months ago and even more. Last time we talked, I declined to go out with you because you sounded like you didn't care if we went out, but I really wanted you to care. But if you really care and If you give me a real chance, and if you tried to actually date me, i'd try my best to make you smile all the time :) Give me a chance?
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
April 5, ho snap.
Hi Blog :)
Today was normal. I was normal. Everything was normal about me. I did go swimming in gym though :T but it was fun because i'm kind of bad at swimming, but I can swim but the rest of the girls had to go do pool laps or w.e and I just got to swim around and play with stuff like a huge beach ball and volleyballs and basketballs! It was pretty amusing. I have to be in the pool for 6 more days, that's when we're done with the pool.
Omg today's now been hilarious due to random convo's with Derek with our whole Black Eyed Peas moment with "D TO THE E TO THE R" etc from me. and him doing it back XD I posted a pic of it on my fb :'D I'm also having an epic random convo on my wall between michael, kate, samantha, and it's soooo random!
:) Today I ate a cup of strawberries with pizza and fries. THE STRAWBERRIES MADE ME THINK OF STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE.... sooo memorylicious goodness
Today was normal. I was normal. Everything was normal about me. I did go swimming in gym though :T but it was fun because i'm kind of bad at swimming, but I can swim but the rest of the girls had to go do pool laps or w.e and I just got to swim around and play with stuff like a huge beach ball and volleyballs and basketballs! It was pretty amusing. I have to be in the pool for 6 more days, that's when we're done with the pool.
Omg today's now been hilarious due to random convo's with Derek with our whole Black Eyed Peas moment with "D TO THE E TO THE R" etc from me. and him doing it back XD I posted a pic of it on my fb :'D I'm also having an epic random convo on my wall between michael, kate, samantha, and it's soooo random!
:) Today I ate a cup of strawberries with pizza and fries. THE STRAWBERRIES MADE ME THINK OF STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE.... sooo memorylicious goodness
Monday, April 4, 2011
Back from Spring Break
Sup? Well, today is Monday and everyone came back to school. I rocked a new shirt and all this other stuff, pretty cool. I also painted my converse white last night because the white areas were dirty haha. Todays classes were okay. I was in the clouds after gym <_< >_> and it was fun and soothing. At home, the guy who asked me out hasn't really emailed back. Which I find bothering. So I probably won't go out with him even if he wants to date me.
Not too much has happened, a normal day.
A day where i've been reunited with someone who is more perfect than anyone else i've ever met, and i can't have them. ANYWAY, when I came home I ate so much food, mostly junk.
Candy, chips, and lots of cereal. I'm not sure what kind of cereal, Captain Crunch? I'm not sure, all I know is that it's sweet :)
Not too much has happened, a normal day.
A day where i've been reunited with someone who is more perfect than anyone else i've ever met, and i can't have them. ANYWAY, when I came home I ate so much food, mostly junk.
Candy, chips, and lots of cereal. I'm not sure what kind of cereal, Captain Crunch? I'm not sure, all I know is that it's sweet :)
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Today was a cool last day of Break!
Hello Blog.
I think I just got asked out. Amazing.
I don't know what to say! He's younger than me, but he is cute. Haha. :X Maybe i'll say yes for just one date just to see.
Today was great! In the morning, I got dressed and stuff and went to the mall (my sister didn't want me to go with her) and we went to R. 21 and I got two more shirts, chyush. <- That's a "yes" but with a "ch" and a "ush." They're pretty cool neon colored shirts. I didn't see anyone at the mall, I was hoping I would. Then, my mom, sister, and I went to places like Walmart, Shoe Carnival, Target, and she went to Hilander while we stayed in the car. I got lots of snacks, omg, I still have snacks.
After the stores we came home and my dad fixed the computer. Turns out the screen was bad, but it's replaced now haha. It'll do.
I haven't done much at home, I have watched cool Sunday shows like The Simpsons and The Cleveland show :) Before that though, I was on facebook mobile and saw an email. An email of a guy asking if I was single. In my mind I was like "he's asking me if i'm single that means he wants to..." then I read on and yeah.
I should go on a date.
Who knew someone would want to date me at this time? :)
Well, actually three people do at this time. <_< .... COOL. I feel special :3
So tomorrow I have school. I kind of want to go, I have nothing else to do really. Tomorrow will be a nice day: new clothes. drinking pur drank (1/2 will then be left Dx) and then coming home to see notifications on facebook! I love notifications on facebook.
Mmm snacks, I want some now! I got... let's see... I got Reeses's cups, that white cookie hershey bar, doritos (i must of already eaten 1/3 of the full size bag already) and I think that's it. Or I could go eat some cereal. But those Flamin' BBQ Doritos... I couldn't stop eating them D; They were spicy goodnessss.
I think I just got asked out. Amazing.
I don't know what to say! He's younger than me, but he is cute. Haha. :X Maybe i'll say yes for just one date just to see.
Today was great! In the morning, I got dressed and stuff and went to the mall (my sister didn't want me to go with her) and we went to R. 21 and I got two more shirts, chyush. <- That's a "yes" but with a "ch" and a "ush." They're pretty cool neon colored shirts. I didn't see anyone at the mall, I was hoping I would. Then, my mom, sister, and I went to places like Walmart, Shoe Carnival, Target, and she went to Hilander while we stayed in the car. I got lots of snacks, omg, I still have snacks.
After the stores we came home and my dad fixed the computer. Turns out the screen was bad, but it's replaced now haha. It'll do.
I haven't done much at home, I have watched cool Sunday shows like The Simpsons and The Cleveland show :) Before that though, I was on facebook mobile and saw an email. An email of a guy asking if I was single. In my mind I was like "he's asking me if i'm single that means he wants to..." then I read on and yeah.
I should go on a date.
Who knew someone would want to date me at this time? :)
Well, actually three people do at this time. <_< .... COOL. I feel special :3
So tomorrow I have school. I kind of want to go, I have nothing else to do really. Tomorrow will be a nice day: new clothes. drinking pur drank (1/2 will then be left Dx) and then coming home to see notifications on facebook! I love notifications on facebook.
Mmm snacks, I want some now! I got... let's see... I got Reeses's cups, that white cookie hershey bar, doritos (i must of already eaten 1/3 of the full size bag already) and I think that's it. Or I could go eat some cereal. But those Flamin' BBQ Doritos... I couldn't stop eating them D; They were spicy goodnessss.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
I havent talked to you bloggy :(
I'm sorry bloggy! But um I don't have much time. So i'll just tell you things without super extra detail like I had planned. Okay well lets see. I went to immediate care, did I tell you? I got medicine for my reaction. So i'm okay. I think it's because of the syrup, shhh!
I have been to the library and mall! The library was fun. The mall was sooo scary and fun at first. Scary because, I saw Sean and Kevin. At that time, which was YESTERDAY, I thought Sean hated my guts. :(
H-h-he yelled at me so much that day. I was so stressed </3 Like, at the mall when I saw him I was like "HOLY CRAP. RUN!" Like I saw him twice at the mall yesterday, and when I saw him sitting in front of Spencers I was like O_O I then yelled "RUN!!!!" more like, screamed so loud. And ran as fast as I could, lmfaooooo. I then ran to like, the middle of the mall on that floor. My sister then turns around and she told me she heard "RUN!!" and turned around and i was GONEE. So yeah.
I thought he hated me. I was so scared to confront him.
So last night, i'm on FB right? and he sends me a friend request. And i'm like "... he. He must of saw me run away. He must of saw my fear." so i readded him and asked him why he friended me. You know what he said?
He said...
I missed you so much, you mean so much more to me than you think.
That sums up what he said. He said those things too... so heart touching iouasdjawfasdmawiojre -spam spam- I did miss him. Since I hacked him on Facebook. OH. Yeah that's why he hated me, because I hacked his Facebook. Then he cussed and yelled at me for like, an hour. >_< But now, we're cool :3 Since last night we stayed up past 12 talking to eachother on Facebook. gyaahhh~
Hmm what else happened yesterday? OH. Well, --- wait hold up.
Ugh, this just happened. My sister just told my dad I have a blog....
SHEEEYYTTT. Watch as he tries to find it </3
Anyway, yesterday was a facebook-y type of day. My ex bycha readded me on fb earlier. More like, I readded him. Ugh. I'm going to get into trouble again. >_< nonono.
I don't know what I think of right now. All I know is, even our cute little comments are becoming too cutesy like for now. If I did ever date him again, against my parents will, which would be at Age (18), that'd mean i'd still have all this time till 18. I don't know. BBUUT, he's cool. I'll try to lesser down on the talky talk to him. It won't work, but haha! God does he read this?
He would be the only person to read this too.
Anyway, about guys. :| I miss my ex's....
but they don't miss meeee. I like, miss 50% of them. Lets see. Who have I dated.
B, S, N, Z, C I think that's it. But I also miss this other guy I haven't kissed. BAHA. But out of those letters, I miss like all of them except 3/5 of them. Relationship missing wise. >_< OH. But I miss this other guy, who like, totally rejected me. Only people at Jefferson really know about him. Teehee.
I need a boyfriend, a cool companion, either one :D
Hm. Oh! About the mall, I also got new stuff. Let's see, I got:
-A new graphic/novelty T-shirt
-Another one
-A bracelet
-Another one
-A cool hat
-I wish I got another one
-A lanyard that says "Legalize" <- That's right. B*^($35
-A huge button for my backpack, it's so cute.
-Blue nailpolish. (I get bored, okay?)
-Purple nailpolish that is made by Nerds, and smells like the candy when it dries.
^ Yeah yeah, i'll post pictures when I get to it. Just for my sake :D So everytime I view my blog, I can go back to that picture and be like "..Cool."
I think that's it. I want to get my hair dyed :\ Or something. My mom says she wants to go get my hair cut.... :D
It's ugly atm. Half of it is 3/4 the other size of the rest.
Yuck, this post is making me feel desperate and lonely bloggy :( I erased like, a paragraph of stuff and wrote this sentence just now because all of it was stupid.
Tomorrow is Sunday! :O School comes on Monday. Time to abuse the pur-drank. -shrugs- I just call it that. Pur drank :D Yeah, it makes no sense to you, but bloggy, if you were in my mind you'd understand. ^^ But I think you are... I'm getting confused (not really, but I think you are.)
OR ARE YOU.
Btw, this guy named Pavee is so weird. Lmfao xD To sum it up... "Do you want my delicious milkshakes?" "I'm thinking of two kinds so it depends" "Just pick the delicious one in your mind!" "Okay both"
Lmfaoooooo. We're so weird c: We also talked about strippers, getting a hotel room, and how he won't pay for my stripper, and me turning orange.
Seems alot has happened since I last talked to you... hasn't felt like it. -hugs bloggy-
That's not weird at all.
NOW ABOUT TODAY, I went to a birthday party and then to church. Yep. There was cake at the birthday party and bbq chicken and oranges. They were all so good ;D
I have been to the library and mall! The library was fun. The mall was sooo scary and fun at first. Scary because, I saw Sean and Kevin. At that time, which was YESTERDAY, I thought Sean hated my guts. :(
H-h-he yelled at me so much that day. I was so stressed </3 Like, at the mall when I saw him I was like "HOLY CRAP. RUN!" Like I saw him twice at the mall yesterday, and when I saw him sitting in front of Spencers I was like O_O I then yelled "RUN!!!!" more like, screamed so loud. And ran as fast as I could, lmfaooooo. I then ran to like, the middle of the mall on that floor. My sister then turns around and she told me she heard "RUN!!" and turned around and i was GONEE. So yeah.
I thought he hated me. I was so scared to confront him.
So last night, i'm on FB right? and he sends me a friend request. And i'm like "... he. He must of saw me run away. He must of saw my fear." so i readded him and asked him why he friended me. You know what he said?
He said...
I missed you so much, you mean so much more to me than you think.
That sums up what he said. He said those things too... so heart touching iouasdjawfasdmawiojre -spam spam- I did miss him. Since I hacked him on Facebook. OH. Yeah that's why he hated me, because I hacked his Facebook. Then he cussed and yelled at me for like, an hour. >_< But now, we're cool :3 Since last night we stayed up past 12 talking to eachother on Facebook. gyaahhh~
Hmm what else happened yesterday? OH. Well, --- wait hold up.
Ugh, this just happened. My sister just told my dad I have a blog....
SHEEEYYTTT. Watch as he tries to find it </3
Anyway, yesterday was a facebook-y type of day. My ex bycha readded me on fb earlier. More like, I readded him. Ugh. I'm going to get into trouble again. >_< nonono.
I don't know what I think of right now. All I know is, even our cute little comments are becoming too cutesy like for now. If I did ever date him again, against my parents will, which would be at Age (18), that'd mean i'd still have all this time till 18. I don't know. BBUUT, he's cool. I'll try to lesser down on the talky talk to him. It won't work, but haha! God does he read this?
He would be the only person to read this too.
Anyway, about guys. :| I miss my ex's....
but they don't miss meeee. I like, miss 50% of them. Lets see. Who have I dated.
B, S, N, Z, C I think that's it. But I also miss this other guy I haven't kissed. BAHA. But out of those letters, I miss like all of them except 3/5 of them. Relationship missing wise. >_< OH. But I miss this other guy, who like, totally rejected me. Only people at Jefferson really know about him. Teehee.
I need a boyfriend, a cool companion, either one :D
Hm. Oh! About the mall, I also got new stuff. Let's see, I got:
-A new graphic/novelty T-shirt
-Another one
-A bracelet
-Another one
-A cool hat
-I wish I got another one
-A lanyard that says "Legalize" <- That's right. B*^($35
-A huge button for my backpack, it's so cute.
-Blue nailpolish. (I get bored, okay?)
-Purple nailpolish that is made by Nerds, and smells like the candy when it dries.
^ Yeah yeah, i'll post pictures when I get to it. Just for my sake :D So everytime I view my blog, I can go back to that picture and be like "..Cool."
I think that's it. I want to get my hair dyed :\ Or something. My mom says she wants to go get my hair cut.... :D
It's ugly atm. Half of it is 3/4 the other size of the rest.
Yuck, this post is making me feel desperate and lonely bloggy :( I erased like, a paragraph of stuff and wrote this sentence just now because all of it was stupid.
Tomorrow is Sunday! :O School comes on Monday. Time to abuse the pur-drank. -shrugs- I just call it that. Pur drank :D Yeah, it makes no sense to you, but bloggy, if you were in my mind you'd understand. ^^ But I think you are... I'm getting confused (not really, but I think you are.)
OR ARE YOU.
Btw, this guy named Pavee is so weird. Lmfao xD To sum it up... "Do you want my delicious milkshakes?" "I'm thinking of two kinds so it depends" "Just pick the delicious one in your mind!" "Okay both"
Lmfaoooooo. We're so weird c: We also talked about strippers, getting a hotel room, and how he won't pay for my stripper, and me turning orange.
Seems alot has happened since I last talked to you... hasn't felt like it. -hugs bloggy-
That's not weird at all.
NOW ABOUT TODAY, I went to a birthday party and then to church. Yep. There was cake at the birthday party and bbq chicken and oranges. They were all so good ;D
Monday, March 28, 2011
Hola Blog
Hello, sorry I didn't talk to you yesterday.
Today i'm so itchy... So. Freaking. Itchy. D: I have like, this weird rash... ugh it's so bad. I should stop scratching.
Yesterday- I... what did I do yesterday... I went to the mall yesterday! Yep, first I went to the library and got dvds and books. Then, me and my sister went to the mall. I saw people there I knew. It was pretty cool yuh yuh :) I also got some stuff there for school.
Today- I went to my councelor at 11... he was nice, I haven't seen him in a while. I told him about my cough syrup highs and other issue. Yep. Now, i'm just here at home resisting to the urge to scratch (i'm loosing this war!) My sisters seeing two of her friends today (she sees her friends more than I, wait, what friends? :'D Just kidding I guess.) One of her friends is downstairs now... Oh! Tomorrow I get to see one of my friends tomorrow at her house, i'm excited about that. I haven't gone to someone's house in so long... so long. So yeah! That's about it, I haven't much to talk about now. I wish I had money.
Oh I remember something else! When I got done with my councelor my sister had McDonalds waiting for me! I ate a double cheeseburger and some fries, and guess what? I was lovin' it!
Today i'm so itchy... So. Freaking. Itchy. D: I have like, this weird rash... ugh it's so bad. I should stop scratching.
Yesterday- I... what did I do yesterday... I went to the mall yesterday! Yep, first I went to the library and got dvds and books. Then, me and my sister went to the mall. I saw people there I knew. It was pretty cool yuh yuh :) I also got some stuff there for school.
Today- I went to my councelor at 11... he was nice, I haven't seen him in a while. I told him about my cough syrup highs and other issue. Yep. Now, i'm just here at home resisting to the urge to scratch (i'm loosing this war!) My sisters seeing two of her friends today (she sees her friends more than I, wait, what friends? :'D Just kidding I guess.) One of her friends is downstairs now... Oh! Tomorrow I get to see one of my friends tomorrow at her house, i'm excited about that. I haven't gone to someone's house in so long... so long. So yeah! That's about it, I haven't much to talk about now. I wish I had money.
Oh I remember something else! When I got done with my councelor my sister had McDonalds waiting for me! I ate a double cheeseburger and some fries, and guess what? I was lovin' it!
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Oh my god bloggy
WELLL HELLOO THERE.
Today's Saturday! Spring break has started, but I kinda want to be at school. I won't have much to do here at home.
Today I first went to the library and got DVDs and books! Like, cool huh? Then, I went to the mall for an hour and a half, it was very fun even if it was with my little sister. I saw some people there so that was interesting. When I got home I watched a dvd, ate, normal stuff like that. Then when I got on the computer, I went on my Facebook and like, oh my god.
I got a message in my inbox.
(I love messages in my inbox, I get a feeling inside me that is full of surprise and jumpyness.)
So, I saw it was from... my ex. So I was like excited to read it. HEY. He was my ex, and we were ripped apart. Doesn't mean I dislike him or anything. My family just hates him, and I just kinda... feel the exact opposite of how they feel :D
Anyway, I open it and he's all like, well i'll paraphrase it: "I realized I still love you... not in a romantic way.." Which was like "Oh my god. Why does he feel like how I do??"
Yeah. I kinda was sooo close to him during the time I could be with him and then being seperated just like that changed our love, or not changed, but what the love became was... a weird type of what I can feel it as... Family Love.
So, I was like "He feels like I do? But he admitted it to me, something i'd never do...because I shouldn't." and yaddah yaddah yaddah. So I responded. :D That made me smile. Yeah, he's a nice person :) Our parents just like, ruined stuff (well, my parents did) so we like, turned on eachother a bit---but we're fine now. :\ I miss him more now.
Anyway, imma play with the bunny tomorrow. That are my plans. Oh, and play my iTouch. I'm not sure if i'm going to church. Bloggy, you'll hear about it later anyway! :)
Hmm, at the mall I ate lunch. I had Ruby's Thai Kitchen Mango chicken and BBQ chicken, so freaking good!
Today's Saturday! Spring break has started, but I kinda want to be at school. I won't have much to do here at home.
Today I first went to the library and got DVDs and books! Like, cool huh? Then, I went to the mall for an hour and a half, it was very fun even if it was with my little sister. I saw some people there so that was interesting. When I got home I watched a dvd, ate, normal stuff like that. Then when I got on the computer, I went on my Facebook and like, oh my god.
I got a message in my inbox.
(I love messages in my inbox, I get a feeling inside me that is full of surprise and jumpyness.)
So, I saw it was from... my ex. So I was like excited to read it. HEY. He was my ex, and we were ripped apart. Doesn't mean I dislike him or anything. My family just hates him, and I just kinda... feel the exact opposite of how they feel :D
Anyway, I open it and he's all like, well i'll paraphrase it: "I realized I still love you... not in a romantic way.." Which was like "Oh my god. Why does he feel like how I do??"
Yeah. I kinda was sooo close to him during the time I could be with him and then being seperated just like that changed our love, or not changed, but what the love became was... a weird type of what I can feel it as... Family Love.
So, I was like "He feels like I do? But he admitted it to me, something i'd never do...because I shouldn't." and yaddah yaddah yaddah. So I responded. :D That made me smile. Yeah, he's a nice person :) Our parents just like, ruined stuff (well, my parents did) so we like, turned on eachother a bit---but we're fine now. :\ I miss him more now.
Anyway, imma play with the bunny tomorrow. That are my plans. Oh, and play my iTouch. I'm not sure if i'm going to church. Bloggy, you'll hear about it later anyway! :)
Hmm, at the mall I ate lunch. I had Ruby's Thai Kitchen Mango chicken and BBQ chicken, so freaking good!
Friday, March 25, 2011
Hey Blog!
Sorry I haven't talked to you in a couple days... I know how you feel.
Lots (well not lots) has happened while I haven't posted. Yesterday, I was all snuggly and outgoing to my ex for once because I got a burst of courage. Then, last night he broke up with me saying he doesn't have the same feelings like I do. Okay, whatever x_x So yeah, now i'm single with open arms :D I haz cookies -shows invisible cookie-
Today was great, I did what I said I said i'd do on facebook, and it made my head spinnnnn and I was happpyy and it was a nice time. With cough syrup yep yep. So, for 3 class periods, I was super chillaxed.
I've also been completing my secret goals list. HEY omg, want to hear something crazy??
So there's this box that had been sitting at the bottom of my locker since I went to Jefferson, I just kinda ignored it because I was too busy to pay attention to it. Well, today I took it out and opened it in one hour and there's all these little vial/containers which have these little glass sticks (100 per vial) in them. So I looked up online the numbers on a sticker on the side of the box, to see if I could find out what they were. Turns out that each vial online costs around $15. And a whole case (which is 12 vials, which is what that box had) is worth.... Get this. Around $150.
LIKE, W.T.F. That's so crazy! So, imma try to sell it on Craigslist for $120, and if they don't sell there, i'll try ebay. Mhm mhm. What they were doing in my locker, I don't know lol.
On the afternoon bus, i'm always with my cool friend Maddie and today she was all "Let me poke a hole in the side of your Sprite" (I had a non-open can of sprite) because she wanted to do that when we hang out over break so I was like "hmmm. okay." and then she did it, and it sprayed alot for 2 seconds! and she had her finger over it and it was crazy. I showed her this trick where, I used to poke a hole in a new can at the top and shook the can while covering the hole, and the soda would shoot out many feet. So I did that on the bus and it went SHHHHOOOO across the bus. We were laughing so hard! & when I tried to cover it again it made fart sounds because my finger couldn't stay still on the hole. Hahahaha :D We laughed so much.
Today actually has been really great :) But I don't want spring break... I have nothing fun to do...
Uhhh, I didn't have church youth night tonight. They haven't had it in a while at church haha.
What did I eat today? For breakfast... Sprite. For lunch... Mozzerela Fried Cheese and Potato things. For dinner... Half a McDonalds burger, and Half a Burger King Bacon burger. Overall, they were all great!
Lots (well not lots) has happened while I haven't posted. Yesterday, I was all snuggly and outgoing to my ex for once because I got a burst of courage. Then, last night he broke up with me saying he doesn't have the same feelings like I do. Okay, whatever x_x So yeah, now i'm single with open arms :D I haz cookies -shows invisible cookie-
Today was great, I did what I said I said i'd do on facebook, and it made my head spinnnnn and I was happpyy and it was a nice time. With cough syrup yep yep. So, for 3 class periods, I was super chillaxed.
I've also been completing my secret goals list. HEY omg, want to hear something crazy??
So there's this box that had been sitting at the bottom of my locker since I went to Jefferson, I just kinda ignored it because I was too busy to pay attention to it. Well, today I took it out and opened it in one hour and there's all these little vial/containers which have these little glass sticks (100 per vial) in them. So I looked up online the numbers on a sticker on the side of the box, to see if I could find out what they were. Turns out that each vial online costs around $15. And a whole case (which is 12 vials, which is what that box had) is worth.... Get this. Around $150.
LIKE, W.T.F. That's so crazy! So, imma try to sell it on Craigslist for $120, and if they don't sell there, i'll try ebay. Mhm mhm. What they were doing in my locker, I don't know lol.
On the afternoon bus, i'm always with my cool friend Maddie and today she was all "Let me poke a hole in the side of your Sprite" (I had a non-open can of sprite) because she wanted to do that when we hang out over break so I was like "hmmm. okay." and then she did it, and it sprayed alot for 2 seconds! and she had her finger over it and it was crazy. I showed her this trick where, I used to poke a hole in a new can at the top and shook the can while covering the hole, and the soda would shoot out many feet. So I did that on the bus and it went SHHHHOOOO across the bus. We were laughing so hard! & when I tried to cover it again it made fart sounds because my finger couldn't stay still on the hole. Hahahaha :D We laughed so much.
Today actually has been really great :) But I don't want spring break... I have nothing fun to do...
Uhhh, I didn't have church youth night tonight. They haven't had it in a while at church haha.
What did I eat today? For breakfast... Sprite. For lunch... Mozzerela Fried Cheese and Potato things. For dinner... Half a McDonalds burger, and Half a Burger King Bacon burger. Overall, they were all great!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Today wasn't too happy Bloggy...
Today wasn't too great or bad. Everything was kinda normal, my bf seemed... more distant than usual. It made/is still making me sad. Like, I don't think he even realizes that i'm saddened that he just doesn't try to hug me or anything. The only effort I see from him is that he: gets up when I ask for a hug & he walks towards me when I wait for him before his classes.
Sigh. Nope nope. I need to stop complaining. He's a good guy... he's just always tired from sports that he loves. I need to understand that. I must fight for what I want, right? (As Jeremy from gym says... god he's so cool. His personality from what i've seen is like mine, but better!)
Hmm, I have lots of makeup work due this week. Working on that.
I have this lyric from this random church song stuck in my head: "I don't wanna talk about you, like you're not in the room..." pretty weird that I would randomly remember a religious lyric.
I should take more cough syrup tomorrow, haha. It makes me feel soooooo chillaxed and talkative at a normal voice. Lol. Plus, i'm not feeling good, kinda depressed. So, why not~
Today I actually bought lunch! Pizza and these huge potato slices/fries (i'm not sure what to call them) and they were pretty awesome :)
I had dinner early today, the lamb was good.
Sigh. Nope nope. I need to stop complaining. He's a good guy... he's just always tired from sports that he loves. I need to understand that. I must fight for what I want, right? (As Jeremy from gym says... god he's so cool. His personality from what i've seen is like mine, but better!)
Hmm, I have lots of makeup work due this week. Working on that.
I have this lyric from this random church song stuck in my head: "I don't wanna talk about you, like you're not in the room..." pretty weird that I would randomly remember a religious lyric.
I should take more cough syrup tomorrow, haha. It makes me feel soooooo chillaxed and talkative at a normal voice. Lol. Plus, i'm not feeling good, kinda depressed. So, why not~
Today I actually bought lunch! Pizza and these huge potato slices/fries (i'm not sure what to call them) and they were pretty awesome :)
I had dinner early today, the lamb was good.
Monday, March 21, 2011
It was 7:45PM and I needed to go to school Bloggy!
Hello Blog.
I'm kind of freaked out right now so i'll explain why.
Well, today I took too much codeine and promethazine which, wacked me out, or as what i've read online, had made me high... and it did. I took some before gym because my throat was weird and I was coughing alot but I took a bit much with sprite. Then, at first I was all hyper and stuff, it was weird, I didn't make sense to my friend in Gym, he probably thinks I was wacked out! Then, it wasn't until 8th hour (which was right after gym) that I started feeling slow and nice feeling, but with a weird tired/nontired feeling. Like I said, it was slow feeling. Anyway, not going into too much details, but I was un-me and I never got excited really, I spoke in a normal tone for the whole day! I never talk in a normal voice for more than 5 minutes of conversation. More like, 2 minutes! Haha.
When I got home, I fell asleep... and I got woken up at 7:45PM and I thought it was like, 7am and that I needed to go to school. So I got up, no joke, I felt and still feel like I need to go to school. When I awoke, I went into the kitchen and my family told me "Good Morning!" and I was like "..." and I saw they were all having DINNER! Like, WTF. It was so weird!!! Now, I'm not tired at all, it was really good sleep, it felt like I slept for 10 hours haha.
After they all finished dinner I started doing Spanish work and other homework! Now, i'm on the computer, still freaking out about how i'm 0% tired, and feel the craziest urge to go to school.
I haven't really eaten anything today, just drank Sierra Mist when I woke up.
I'm kind of freaked out right now so i'll explain why.
Well, today I took too much codeine and promethazine which, wacked me out, or as what i've read online, had made me high... and it did. I took some before gym because my throat was weird and I was coughing alot but I took a bit much with sprite. Then, at first I was all hyper and stuff, it was weird, I didn't make sense to my friend in Gym, he probably thinks I was wacked out! Then, it wasn't until 8th hour (which was right after gym) that I started feeling slow and nice feeling, but with a weird tired/nontired feeling. Like I said, it was slow feeling. Anyway, not going into too much details, but I was un-me and I never got excited really, I spoke in a normal tone for the whole day! I never talk in a normal voice for more than 5 minutes of conversation. More like, 2 minutes! Haha.
When I got home, I fell asleep... and I got woken up at 7:45PM and I thought it was like, 7am and that I needed to go to school. So I got up, no joke, I felt and still feel like I need to go to school. When I awoke, I went into the kitchen and my family told me "Good Morning!" and I was like "..." and I saw they were all having DINNER! Like, WTF. It was so weird!!! Now, I'm not tired at all, it was really good sleep, it felt like I slept for 10 hours haha.
After they all finished dinner I started doing Spanish work and other homework! Now, i'm on the computer, still freaking out about how i'm 0% tired, and feel the craziest urge to go to school.
I haven't really eaten anything today, just drank Sierra Mist when I woke up.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Normal Day Today Blog!
Herro, me from thailand, alooottaa fruit! come come!
^ Sums up what people from thailand are like.
SO HEYYOO! It's Natalia (who else?!!) I just totally finished my project for English. We had to write a paper about something difficult we overcame or didn't overcome. I wrote about... DUH DUH DUH:
SUICIDE! Yeah, it was a pretty intense paper about this one time I stabbed myself and bled. So cool.
Today I went to church, played my iTouch most of the time. My boyfriend (I love saying that) got his cell back!! yayyy. Haha he made me laugh out loud with something he randomly texted... I usually don't laugh out loud to much... so that's a special moment :) Oh, he also said he'd try to call today. He better, otherwise i'm calling him a promise breaker tomorrow at school!!
After church, I watched some vids on my iTouch and shtuff. Then I began to work on my English project. Then after that, I had the black bunny on my lap. She's so cute!! I'll post a picture of her sometime.
So, today, has been kind of an ordinary day. Nothing bad has really happened or anything good.
But I did have soup my mom made ...mmm asian soup is delicious!
^ Sums up what people from thailand are like.
SO HEYYOO! It's Natalia (who else?!!) I just totally finished my project for English. We had to write a paper about something difficult we overcame or didn't overcome. I wrote about... DUH DUH DUH:
SUICIDE! Yeah, it was a pretty intense paper about this one time I stabbed myself and bled. So cool.
Today I went to church, played my iTouch most of the time. My boyfriend (I love saying that) got his cell back!! yayyy. Haha he made me laugh out loud with something he randomly texted... I usually don't laugh out loud to much... so that's a special moment :) Oh, he also said he'd try to call today. He better, otherwise i'm calling him a promise breaker tomorrow at school!!
After church, I watched some vids on my iTouch and shtuff. Then I began to work on my English project. Then after that, I had the black bunny on my lap. She's so cute!! I'll post a picture of her sometime.
So, today, has been kind of an ordinary day. Nothing bad has really happened or anything good.
But I did have soup my mom made ...mmm asian soup is delicious!
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Hi Bloggy
Hello new blog, no one will ever read you. & If someone does, bless the world that they spent the time to care about what I have to say.
Is it really safe to post my life on here? Being so open to everyone?
What if i'm writing about someone and they read this?
My name's Natalia. I'm 16. I'm posting here because i'm tired of noone trying for me. In life, online, everywhere.
BEEEETCHESSS.
Anyway, so I moved to this new school and whatever in January. Which means: HEY! Your antisocial friends at your other school won't care about you anymore. <- It's true, and has happened.
I moved to this weird school, close to home. If I could have chosen, I would have stayed at my other school, or a school called East. But, i'm glad I didn't even get a choice to move to East, it would of been a waste to go anyway. People move on. (There was some dude I woulda gone for there.)
I go to a school called Jefferson. What's Jefferson to me?
LETS SEE:
1.) A place full of idiots.
2.) A place full of druggy and smoking idiots.
3.) The people there are nice I guess, kinda friendly.
4.) I used to be able to smell how the school smelled like smoke all the time, I no longer smell it.
5.) A place where my heart is alone. I am alone.
Anywho, so let's see. Hmm. Today is Saturday! (Sarcasm with the !)
This means nothing besides being home alone, crying, being sad and bored, and now being able to pet my sister's black bunny. It's pretty cute.
Uhh. I have a boyfriend now (yay.) Which I find, crazy. Like, who the hell would want to date me? I'm so dorky, and weird, and and. And. All these other things. bah, he won't read this so I can say whatever I guess. Hmm.
The guy i'm dating:
He seems nice. Kinda quiet. Shylike. We connected really well before we started dating. (not saying we don't now... i'm trying :\) I met him through this one really nice girl... after I asked her if she knew anybody I could try to be with. It's not like she set me up with him. I WAS REALLY LONELY OKAY. So, yeah. Turned out after I got to know him a little bit, he was my ideal online person. Except, he never gets online T_T I live online. I breath online. I think online. -sighs- <- breathing online. Yeah. In person, he's kinda... quiet (i said that) and shy (i said that) and ALWAYS TIRED D:
How am I supposed to be lively with someone who brings me down with their tiredness and nontalkyness.
Hmmm. I'm doing my datingself thing, giving notes, food, and perhaps money on monday to him. I doubt it's changed myself in his mind to him. But, i'm still dating him. Maybe i'll get him to open up to me. :\ I think about him like, all the time. He doesn't know that though.
TIMES I THINK ABOUT HIM CUZ IM A LOSER WHO NEEDS SOMEONE TO LOVE:
- in the shower. (its not creepy.)
- in my bed. (when i wake or sleep, its not creepy.)
- right now and on the computer. (its not creepy.)
-when i'm in a car. wait. actually i havent... hmm...
- in my room. (all the time)
- in the bathroom. (baahahahaha.)
- when i'm washing my hands. (bathroom lol.)
- just, when my mind is sad. <- that covers everything.
TIMES HE THINKS ABOUT ME PROBABLY:
- only when he sees me.
- when he's on runescape and is bored.
Anyway, (God if he reads that, he's going to be like "..." and then i'll be like "..." Awkward ball.)
I'm a very emotional person inside. If you pull away from something I want to give you, like a hug or something, it hurts inside. Like, it's like you're rejecting me. It basically tells me you're saying "Leave me the heck alone and stop trying to get close to me." So, bf, stop rejecting me, kay?
I need to stop talking about him for today.
Today, I went to the library. Got on the computer. Facebook and youtube and stuff. It was mind occupying :) If I get bored i'm sad, so this was a plus.
Then pet the bunny (as said earlier) WHILE ON THE COMPUTER MUAHAHHAA.
I wish I were an animal, then I could cuddle with those I secretly want to cuddle with and wrestle.
I haven't laughed a ton today since i'm home and alone.
I've been posting on FB about random crap. And guys just started messing with me, it wasn't really funny, but oh well.
WAIT I HAVE MORE TO SAY ABOUT MY BF. Lol, Sorry, it's just that, when I get a bf or a best friend, they become my number 1 in my life. Even if they don't know it. He hasn't called yet like he promised! :( I made him promise, because he seems like someone who wouldn't call someone if they aren't told to, lol.
Tonight will probably be boring and sad, like last night. I cried last night. -sigh- I cry all the time because i'm lonely at home.
I'm so retarded lol, hm. If I could make the people in my life, i'd make them like this one dude in my gym class. He = Best Person I've Ever Met. No Joke. He doesn't know it though :I
Anyway... I think i'm done posting for now. I'll probably update this thing randomly, or multiple times during a day lol.
The best thing about today was probably the library.
I had fish sticks earlier today. This was the second best thing of my day. They were delicious :3
Is it really safe to post my life on here? Being so open to everyone?
What if i'm writing about someone and they read this?
My name's Natalia. I'm 16. I'm posting here because i'm tired of noone trying for me. In life, online, everywhere.
BEEEETCHESSS.
Anyway, so I moved to this new school and whatever in January. Which means: HEY! Your antisocial friends at your other school won't care about you anymore. <- It's true, and has happened.
I moved to this weird school, close to home. If I could have chosen, I would have stayed at my other school, or a school called East. But, i'm glad I didn't even get a choice to move to East, it would of been a waste to go anyway. People move on. (There was some dude I woulda gone for there.)
I go to a school called Jefferson. What's Jefferson to me?
LETS SEE:
1.) A place full of idiots.
2.) A place full of druggy and smoking idiots.
3.) The people there are nice I guess, kinda friendly.
4.) I used to be able to smell how the school smelled like smoke all the time, I no longer smell it.
5.) A place where my heart is alone. I am alone.
Anywho, so let's see. Hmm. Today is Saturday! (Sarcasm with the !)
This means nothing besides being home alone, crying, being sad and bored, and now being able to pet my sister's black bunny. It's pretty cute.
Uhh. I have a boyfriend now (yay.) Which I find, crazy. Like, who the hell would want to date me? I'm so dorky, and weird, and and. And. All these other things. bah, he won't read this so I can say whatever I guess. Hmm.
The guy i'm dating:
He seems nice. Kinda quiet. Shylike. We connected really well before we started dating. (not saying we don't now... i'm trying :\) I met him through this one really nice girl... after I asked her if she knew anybody I could try to be with. It's not like she set me up with him. I WAS REALLY LONELY OKAY. So, yeah. Turned out after I got to know him a little bit, he was my ideal online person. Except, he never gets online T_T I live online. I breath online. I think online. -sighs- <- breathing online. Yeah. In person, he's kinda... quiet (i said that) and shy (i said that) and ALWAYS TIRED D:
How am I supposed to be lively with someone who brings me down with their tiredness and nontalkyness.
Hmmm. I'm doing my datingself thing, giving notes, food, and perhaps money on monday to him. I doubt it's changed myself in his mind to him. But, i'm still dating him. Maybe i'll get him to open up to me. :\ I think about him like, all the time. He doesn't know that though.
TIMES I THINK ABOUT HIM CUZ IM A LOSER WHO NEEDS SOMEONE TO LOVE:
- in the shower. (its not creepy.)
- in my bed. (when i wake or sleep, its not creepy.)
- right now and on the computer. (its not creepy.)
-when i'm in a car. wait. actually i havent... hmm...
- in my room. (all the time)
- in the bathroom. (baahahahaha.)
- when i'm washing my hands. (bathroom lol.)
- just, when my mind is sad. <- that covers everything.
TIMES HE THINKS ABOUT ME PROBABLY:
- only when he sees me.
- when he's on runescape and is bored.
Anyway, (God if he reads that, he's going to be like "..." and then i'll be like "..." Awkward ball.)
I'm a very emotional person inside. If you pull away from something I want to give you, like a hug or something, it hurts inside. Like, it's like you're rejecting me. It basically tells me you're saying "Leave me the heck alone and stop trying to get close to me." So, bf, stop rejecting me, kay?
I need to stop talking about him for today.
Today, I went to the library. Got on the computer. Facebook and youtube and stuff. It was mind occupying :) If I get bored i'm sad, so this was a plus.
Then pet the bunny (as said earlier) WHILE ON THE COMPUTER MUAHAHHAA.
I wish I were an animal, then I could cuddle with those I secretly want to cuddle with and wrestle.
I haven't laughed a ton today since i'm home and alone.
I've been posting on FB about random crap. And guys just started messing with me, it wasn't really funny, but oh well.
WAIT I HAVE MORE TO SAY ABOUT MY BF. Lol, Sorry, it's just that, when I get a bf or a best friend, they become my number 1 in my life. Even if they don't know it. He hasn't called yet like he promised! :( I made him promise, because he seems like someone who wouldn't call someone if they aren't told to, lol.
Tonight will probably be boring and sad, like last night. I cried last night. -sigh- I cry all the time because i'm lonely at home.
I'm so retarded lol, hm. If I could make the people in my life, i'd make them like this one dude in my gym class. He = Best Person I've Ever Met. No Joke. He doesn't know it though :I
Anyway... I think i'm done posting for now. I'll probably update this thing randomly, or multiple times during a day lol.
The best thing about today was probably the library.
I had fish sticks earlier today. This was the second best thing of my day. They were delicious :3
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