Hi Bloggy

Hello new blog, no one will ever read you. & If someone does, bless the world that they spent the time to care about what I have to say.

Is it really safe to post my life on here? Being so open to everyone?
What if i'm writing about someone and they read this?

My name's Natalia. I'm 16. I'm posting here because i'm tired of noone trying for me. In life, online, everywhere.
BEEEETCHESSS.
Anyway, so I moved to this new school and whatever in January. Which means: HEY! Your antisocial friends at your other school won't care about you anymore. <- It's true, and has happened.
I moved to this weird school, close to home. If I could have chosen, I would have stayed at my other school, or a school called East. But, i'm glad I didn't even get a choice to move to East, it would of been a waste to go anyway. People move on. (There was some dude I woulda gone for there.)
I go to a school called Jefferson. What's Jefferson to me?
LETS SEE:
1.) A place full of idiots.
2.) A place full of druggy and smoking idiots.
3.) The people there are nice I guess, kinda friendly.
4.) I used to be able to smell how the school smelled like smoke all the time, I no longer smell it.
5.) A place where my heart is alone. I am alone.

Anywho, so let's see. Hmm. Today is Saturday! (Sarcasm with the !)
This means nothing besides being home alone, crying, being sad and bored, and now being able to pet my sister's black bunny. It's pretty cute.
Uhh. I have a boyfriend now (yay.) Which I find, crazy. Like, who the hell would want to date me? I'm so dorky, and weird, and and. And. All these other things. bah, he won't read this so I can say whatever I guess. Hmm.
The guy i'm dating:
He seems nice. Kinda quiet. Shylike. We connected really well before we started dating. (not saying we don't now... i'm trying :\) I met him through this one really nice girl... after I asked her if she knew anybody I could try to be with. It's not like she set me up with him. I WAS REALLY LONELY OKAY. So, yeah. Turned out after I got to know him a little bit, he was my ideal online person. Except, he never gets online T_T I live online. I breath online. I think online. -sighs- <- breathing online. Yeah. In person, he's kinda... quiet (i said that) and shy (i said that) and ALWAYS TIRED D:
How am I supposed to be lively with someone who brings me down with their tiredness and nontalkyness.
Hmmm. I'm doing my datingself thing, giving notes, food, and perhaps money on monday to him. I doubt it's changed myself in his mind to him. But, i'm still dating him. Maybe i'll get him to open up to me. :\ I think about him like, all the time. He doesn't know that though.

TIMES I THINK ABOUT HIM CUZ IM A LOSER WHO NEEDS SOMEONE TO LOVE:
- in the shower. (its not creepy.)
- in my bed. (when i wake or sleep, its not creepy.)
- right now and on the computer. (its not creepy.)
-when i'm in a car. wait. actually i havent... hmm...
- in my room. (all the time)
- in the bathroom. (baahahahaha.)
- when i'm washing my hands. (bathroom lol.)
- just, when my mind is sad. <- that covers everything.

TIMES HE THINKS ABOUT ME PROBABLY:
- only when he sees me.
- when he's on runescape and is bored.

Anyway, (God if he reads that, he's going to be like "..." and then i'll be like "..." Awkward ball.)

I'm a very emotional person inside. If you pull away from something I want to give you, like a hug or something, it hurts inside. Like, it's like you're rejecting me. It basically tells me you're saying "Leave me the heck alone and stop trying to get close to me." So, bf, stop rejecting me, kay?

I need to stop talking about him for today.

Today, I went to the library. Got on the computer. Facebook and youtube and stuff. It was mind occupying :) If I get bored i'm sad, so this was a plus.
Then pet the bunny (as said earlier) WHILE ON THE COMPUTER MUAHAHHAA.
I wish I were an animal, then I could cuddle with those I secretly want to cuddle with and wrestle.
I haven't laughed a ton today since i'm home and alone.
I've been posting on FB about random crap. And guys just started messing with me, it wasn't really funny, but oh well.
WAIT I HAVE MORE TO SAY ABOUT MY BF. Lol, Sorry, it's just that, when I get a bf or a best friend, they become my number 1 in my life. Even if they don't know it. He hasn't called yet like he promised! :( I made him promise, because he seems like someone who wouldn't call someone if they aren't told to, lol.
Tonight will probably be boring and sad, like last night. I cried last night. -sigh- I cry all the time because i'm lonely at home.
I'm so retarded lol, hm. If I could make the people in my life, i'd make them like this one dude in my gym class. He = Best Person I've Ever Met. No Joke. He doesn't know it though :I
Anyway... I think i'm done posting for now. I'll probably update this thing randomly, or multiple times during a day lol.

The best thing about today was probably the library.
I had fish sticks earlier today. This was the second best thing of my day. They were delicious :3