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Hello, sorry I didn't talk to you yesterday.
Today i'm so itchy... So. Freaking. Itchy. D: I have like, this weird rash... ugh it's so bad. I should stop scratching.
Yesterday- I... what did I do yesterday... I went to the mall yesterday! Yep, first I went to the library and got dvds and books. Then, me and my sister went to the mall. I saw people there I knew. It was pretty cool yuh yuh :) I also got some stuff there for school.
Today- I went to my councelor at 11... he was nice, I haven't seen him in a while. I told him about my cough syrup highs and other issue. Yep. Now, i'm just here at home resisting to the urge to scratch (i'm loosing this war!) My sisters seeing two of her friends today (she sees her friends more than I, wait, what friends? :'D Just kidding I guess.) One of her friends is downstairs now... Oh! Tomorrow I get to see one of my friends tomorrow at her house, i'm excited about that. I haven't gone to someone's house in so long... so long. So yeah! That's about it, I haven't much to talk about now. I wish I had money.
Oh I remember something else! When I got done with my councelor my sister had McDonalds waiting for me! I ate a double cheeseburger and some fries, and guess what? I was lovin' it!  

Oh my god bloggy

WELLL HELLOO THERE.
Today's Saturday! Spring break has started, but I kinda want to be at school. I won't have much to do here at home.
Today I first went to the library and got DVDs and books! Like, cool huh? Then, I went to the mall for an hour and a half, it was very fun even if it was with my little sister. I saw some people there so that was interesting. When I got home I watched a dvd, ate, normal stuff like that. Then when I got on the computer, I went on my Facebook and like, oh my god.
I got a message in my inbox.
(I love messages in my inbox, I get a feeling inside me that is full of surprise and jumpyness.)
So, I saw it was from... my ex. So I was like excited to read it. HEY. He was my ex, and we were ripped apart. Doesn't mean I dislike him or anything. My family just hates him, and I just kinda... feel the exact opposite of how they feel :D
Anyway, I open it and he's all like, well i'll paraphrase it: "I realized I still love you... not in a romantic way.." Which was like "Oh my god. Why does he feel like how I do??"
Yeah. I kinda was sooo close to him during the time I could be with him and then being seperated just like that changed our love, or not changed, but what the love became was... a weird type of what I can feel it as... Family Love.
So, I was like "He feels like I do? But he admitted it to me, something i'd never do...because I shouldn't." and yaddah yaddah yaddah. So I responded. :D That made me smile. Yeah, he's a nice person :) Our parents just like, ruined stuff (well, my parents did) so we like, turned on eachother a bit---but we're fine now. :\ I miss him more now.
Anyway, imma play with the bunny tomorrow. That are my plans. Oh, and play my iTouch. I'm not sure if i'm going to church. Bloggy, you'll hear about it later anyway! :)
Hmm, at the mall I ate lunch. I had Ruby's Thai Kitchen Mango chicken and BBQ chicken, so freaking good!

Hey Blog!

Sorry I haven't talked to you in a couple days... I know how you feel.
Lots (well not lots) has happened while I haven't posted. Yesterday, I was all snuggly and outgoing to my ex for once because I got a burst of courage. Then, last night he broke up with me saying he doesn't have the same feelings like I do. Okay, whatever x_x So yeah, now i'm single with open arms :D I haz cookies -shows invisible cookie-
Today was great, I did what I said I said i'd do on facebook, and it made my head spinnnnn and I was happpyy and it was a nice time. With cough syrup yep yep. So, for 3 class periods, I was super chillaxed.
I've also been completing my secret goals list. HEY omg, want to hear something crazy??

So there's this box that had been sitting at the bottom of my locker since I went to Jefferson, I just kinda ignored it because I was too busy to pay attention to it. Well, today I took it out and opened it in one hour and there's all these little vial/containers which have these little glass sticks (100 per vial) in them. So I looked up online the numbers on a sticker on the side of the box, to see if I could find out what they were. Turns out that each vial online costs around $15. And a whole case (which is 12 vials, which is what that box had) is worth.... Get this.  Around $150. 
LIKE, W.T.F. That's so crazy! So, imma try to sell it on Craigslist for $120, and if they don't sell there, i'll try ebay. Mhm mhm. What they were doing in my locker, I don't know lol.

On the afternoon bus, i'm always with my cool friend Maddie and today she was all "Let me poke a hole in the side of your Sprite" (I had a non-open can of sprite) because she wanted to do that when we hang out over break so I was like "hmmm. okay." and then she did it, and it sprayed alot for 2 seconds! and she had her finger over it and it was crazy. I showed her this trick where, I used to poke a hole in a new can at the top and shook the can while covering the hole, and the soda would shoot out many feet. So I did that on the bus and it went SHHHHOOOO across the bus. We were laughing so hard! & when I tried to cover it again it made fart sounds because my finger couldn't stay still on the hole. Hahahaha :D We laughed so much.
Today actually has been really great :) But I don't want spring break... I have nothing fun to do...

Uhhh, I didn't have church youth night tonight. They haven't had it in a while at church haha.

What did I eat today? For breakfast... Sprite. For lunch... Mozzerela Fried Cheese and Potato things. For dinner... Half a McDonalds burger, and Half a Burger King Bacon burger. Overall, they were all great!

Today wasn't too happy Bloggy...

Today wasn't too great or bad. Everything was kinda normal, my bf seemed... more distant than usual. It made/is still making me sad. Like, I don't think he even realizes that i'm saddened that he just doesn't try to hug me or anything. The only effort I see from him is that he: gets up when I ask for a hug & he walks towards me when I wait for him before his classes.
Sigh. Nope nope. I need to stop complaining. He's a good guy... he's just always tired from sports that he loves. I need to understand that. I must fight for what I want, right? (As Jeremy from gym says... god he's so cool. His personality from what i've seen is like mine, but better!)
Hmm, I have lots of makeup work due this week. Working on that.
I have this lyric from this random church song stuck in my head: "I don't wanna talk about you, like you're not in the room..." pretty weird that I would randomly remember a religious lyric.

I should take more cough syrup tomorrow, haha. It makes me feel soooooo chillaxed and talkative at a normal voice. Lol. Plus, i'm not feeling good, kinda depressed. So, why not~

Today I actually bought lunch! Pizza and these huge potato slices/fries (i'm not sure what to call them) and they were pretty awesome :)
I had dinner early today, the lamb was good.

It was 7:45PM and I needed to go to school Bloggy!

Hello Blog.
I'm kind of freaked out right now so i'll explain why.
Well, today I took too much codeine and promethazine which, wacked me out, or as what i've read online, had made me high... and it did. I took some before gym because my throat was weird and I was coughing alot but I took a bit much with sprite. Then, at first I was all hyper and stuff, it was weird, I didn't make sense to my friend in Gym, he probably thinks I was wacked out! Then, it wasn't until 8th hour (which was right after gym) that I started feeling slow and nice feeling, but with a weird tired/nontired feeling. Like I said, it was slow feeling. Anyway, not going into too much details, but I was un-me and I never got excited really, I spoke in a normal tone for the whole day! I never talk in a normal voice for more than 5 minutes of conversation. More like, 2 minutes! Haha.
When I got home, I fell asleep... and I got woken up at 7:45PM and I thought it was like, 7am and that I needed to go to school. So I got up, no joke, I felt and still feel like I need to go to school. When I awoke, I went into the kitchen and my family told me "Good Morning!" and I was like "..." and I saw they were all having DINNER! Like, WTF. It was so weird!!! Now, I'm not tired at all, it was really good sleep, it felt like I slept for 10 hours haha.
After they all finished dinner I started doing Spanish work and other homework! Now, i'm on the computer, still freaking out about how i'm 0% tired, and feel the craziest urge to go to school.
I haven't really eaten anything today, just drank Sierra Mist when I woke up.

Normal Day Today Blog!

Herro, me from thailand, alooottaa fruit! come come!
^ Sums up what people from thailand are like.

SO HEYYOO! It's Natalia (who else?!!) I just totally finished my project for English. We had to write a paper about something difficult we overcame or didn't overcome. I wrote about... DUH DUH DUH:
SUICIDE! Yeah, it was a pretty intense paper about this one time I stabbed myself and bled. So cool.

Today I went to church, played my iTouch most of the time. My boyfriend (I love saying that) got his cell back!! yayyy. Haha he made me laugh out loud with something he randomly texted... I usually don't laugh out loud to much... so that's a special moment :) Oh, he also said he'd try to call today. He better, otherwise i'm calling him a promise breaker tomorrow at school!!
After church, I watched some vids on my iTouch and shtuff. Then I began to work on my English project. Then after that, I had the black bunny on my lap. She's so cute!! I'll post a picture of her sometime.
So, today, has been kind of an ordinary day. Nothing bad has really happened or anything good.
But I did have soup my mom made ...mmm asian soup is delicious!

Hi Bloggy

Hello new blog, no one will ever read you. & If someone does, bless the world that they spent the time to care about what I have to say.

Is it really safe to post my life on here? Being so open to everyone?
What if i'm writing about someone and they read this?

My name's Natalia. I'm 16. I'm posting here because i'm tired of noone trying for me. In life, online, everywhere.
BEEEETCHESSS.
Anyway, so I moved to this new school and whatever in January. Which means: HEY! Your antisocial friends at your other school won't care about you anymore. <- It's true, and has happened.
I moved to this weird school, close to home. If I could have chosen, I would have stayed at my other school, or a school called East. But, i'm glad I didn't even get a choice to move to East, it would of been a waste to go anyway. People move on. (There was some dude I woulda gone for there.)
I go to a school called Jefferson. What's Jefferson to me?
LETS SEE:
1.) A place full of idiots.
2.) A place full of druggy and smoking idiots.
3.) The people there are nice I guess, kinda friendly.
4.) I used to be able to smell how the school smelled like smoke all the time, I no longer smell it.
5.) A place where my heart is alone. I am alone.

Anywho, so let's see. Hmm. Today is Saturday! (Sarcasm with the !)
This means nothing besides being home alone, crying, being sad and bored, and now being able to pet my sister's black bunny. It's pretty cute.
Uhh. I have a boyfriend now (yay.) Which I find, crazy. Like, who the hell would want to date me? I'm so dorky, and weird, and and. And. All these other things. bah, he won't read this so I can say whatever I guess. Hmm.
The guy i'm dating:
He seems nice. Kinda quiet. Shylike. We connected really well before we started dating. (not saying we don't now... i'm trying :\) I met him through this one really nice girl... after I asked her if she knew anybody I could try to be with. It's not like she set me up with him. I WAS REALLY LONELY OKAY. So, yeah. Turned out after I got to know him a little bit, he was my ideal online person. Except, he never gets online T_T I live online. I breath online. I think online. -sighs- <- breathing online. Yeah. In person, he's kinda... quiet (i said that) and shy (i said that) and ALWAYS TIRED D:
How am I supposed to be lively with someone who brings me down with their tiredness and nontalkyness.
Hmmm. I'm doing my datingself thing, giving notes, food, and perhaps money on monday to him. I doubt it's changed myself in his mind to him. But, i'm still dating him. Maybe i'll get him to open up to me. :\ I think about him like, all the time. He doesn't know that though.

TIMES I THINK ABOUT HIM CUZ IM A LOSER WHO NEEDS SOMEONE TO LOVE:
- in the shower. (its not creepy.)
- in my bed. (when i wake or sleep, its not creepy.)
- right now and on the computer. (its not creepy.)
-when i'm in a car. wait. actually i havent... hmm...
- in my room. (all the time)
- in the bathroom. (baahahahaha.)
- when i'm washing my hands. (bathroom lol.)
- just, when my mind is sad. <- that covers everything.

TIMES HE THINKS ABOUT ME PROBABLY:
- only when he sees me.
- when he's on runescape and is bored.

Anyway, (God if he reads that, he's going to be like "..." and then i'll be like "..." Awkward ball.)

I'm a very emotional person inside. If you pull away from something I want to give you, like a hug or something, it hurts inside. Like, it's like you're rejecting me. It basically tells me you're saying "Leave me the heck alone and stop trying to get close to me." So, bf, stop rejecting me, kay?

I need to stop talking about him for today.

Today, I went to the library. Got on the computer. Facebook and youtube and stuff. It was mind occupying :) If I get bored i'm sad, so this was a plus.
Then pet the bunny (as said earlier) WHILE ON THE COMPUTER MUAHAHHAA.
I wish I were an animal, then I could cuddle with those I secretly want to cuddle with and wrestle.
I haven't laughed a ton today since i'm home and alone.
I've been posting on FB about random crap. And guys just started messing with me, it wasn't really funny, but oh well.
WAIT I HAVE MORE TO SAY ABOUT MY BF. Lol, Sorry, it's just that, when I get a bf or a best friend, they become my number 1 in my life. Even if they don't know it. He hasn't called yet like he promised! :( I made him promise, because he seems like someone who wouldn't call someone if they aren't told to, lol.
Tonight will probably be boring and sad, like last night. I cried last night. -sigh- I cry all the time because i'm lonely at home.
I'm so retarded lol, hm. If I could make the people in my life, i'd make them like this one dude in my gym class. He = Best Person I've Ever Met. No Joke. He doesn't know it though :I
Anyway... I think i'm done posting for now. I'll probably update this thing randomly, or multiple times during a day lol.

The best thing about today was probably the library.
I had fish sticks earlier today. This was the second best thing of my day. They were delicious :3