Nonono.

Hi blog. I'm going to talk to you before I do my essay for English.
Today sucked but was numbed out mostly.

Today, I got high.
I drank half a 4 fl. oz. bottle of Robitussin. That's 2 oz. That got me messed up more than any other syrup. Though, i've only tried one other kind, but still. So yeah. I did it before 3rd hour, which is Chemistry. The class my friend Hailey is in, and the guy I like, Garry. When it is 3rd hour I walk into class.
He had these funny shades. They were funny, but cute. Mysterious. So, I don't know if he was looking at me, or anywhere else. During class, my high begins to creep higher and higher. It feels good. When I turn my head it numbs my brain because my vision goes to slow to adjust to the speed of my head. It feels good. So, I guess Robitussin makes me feel happier than the other syrup. To the point where i'm smiling and laughing just because I feel happy. Not the kind of crazy "laugh at a piece of bread or a book" laughing. Just a more happier me. One that isn't afraid of anything really.
Class ends, and I can barely walk normal in my head. Probably, I was walking fine. My mind is racing a bit, numb. We're leaving class and I exit along with Hailey. Garry is in front of her.
Now look, i've never seen him TALK to any chick over the months i've adored him from afar.
HE TURNS AROUND TO HER while walking out the door and asks her "you're broken up with your boyfriend?" and Hailey replies "yeah he broke up with me." Now, what the heck. Why would he care, if he's not interested in her? So, I begin to wonder about that. So I asked Hailey "does he talk to you?" and she's like "no this was the first time" or something like that. My brain was messed up at that time.
During lunch, I see Garry and I see Hailey. Hailey's alone (I asked if I could sit with her, because she's my friend. She kinda shrugged me off and told me to ask her friends. I didn't want to bother.) and Garry is too. They sit at the same row of tables. He sits at the one at one end, and she sits on the other. In the middle of lunch, he gets up and goes and sits in front of her. So, i'm freaking out. And freaking out while high is not good. It's twice and bad than when you freak out normally. So, i'm like almost crying at my table (seriously.) because i'm worried he likes her. So yeah. If he likes her, I know she's not interested, but still. It kinda hurts. It kinda hurts because:
1- she just got broken up, and right after that, the next day, he seems to like her.
2- she complains on fb, but everyone loves her. I complain on fb, but eh, everyones like "why do we care" and they show that by not saying anything.
3- The main thing out of all of this, or to summarize all of this is... i'm not jealous of her, nor mad, or any other bad feeling towards her. She's my friend.  But like, why does someone who's just as bad as me, JUST AS BAD, maybe worse because her life seems kind of bad, She's just as bad of a depression, maybe worse. Why does someone like THAT have more people giving her attention. More guys going after her.
UGH I DONT EVEN KNOW. Forget everything I said.
Hailey if you're reading this, sorry, forget everything I said. You can sympathize right?
I need to forget boyfriends. It's not working though :\
Yep. So, the guy I like probably likes her. Maybe. Not sure. I'll see in a few days. If he likes her, at least it's her and some chick I don't know. ^_^

I colored yesterday. They're really pretty simple pictures all over two pages. I like it.
I ate a banana earlier, it was nomnomlicious.