I'm not sad anymore, blog.

It's been almost a week ;D And so much has happened.
I got asked out May 12th, 2011. <3 Which made me so freakin' happy. I got asked out in person too.
We went on our first date today! We went to the movie theaters to see Hoodwinked Too. Though, I personally enjoyed hanging out with him more than the movie! Best date ever... So fun.

The school week before Thursday was sickness. Ugh. I don't even want to talk about it.
But on Wednesday, he gave me a sprite from home. He's so caring!!!
On Thursday I did feel completely better in the morning though. :3 That's when he asked me out...

Blog, I think the reason I haven't written to you in a while is because I haven't felt the need to. I actually have someone to talk to. I haven't felt sad at all, especially with him.
Yeah, this post is pretty cutesy. I love it.

So Blog, I won't really be talking to you too much... maybe, maybe not.

At the movie theaters me and him got popcorn, a soda, and crunch chocolateee! He told me I was the first person he had ever shared a drink with... I asked him why and he told me that... it's because he likes me so much. During this first date, i've realized just how much I like him.
I actually can feel how much I like him.
You know what, I have something better to say other than what i've eaten that's been so delicious, so i'll end it like this blog. :)
Natalia & Jason. May 12th, 2011. So fantastic.

Awesome Blog

Hello.
Today has been really cool! I went to church and first was a combined service which means everyone who goes to the church goes on this day! Then after that, there was a bunch of asian dances for mothers day to the Lao&Thai mothers. Then after that, there was a ton of food. SO GOOD.
But before we went to church, my family got ruffled up and were talking really loud to eachother about the whole going to church thing. I feel bad for my little sister. She was playing the piano... probably trying to ignore my family.
Someone told me they liked me today. I think it's really sweet, but i'm not interested in a relationship with him at all, but more of a really great friends relation to eachother.

Last night, I talked on the phone for a long time again with Jason. Quite funny actually xD
But afterwards me and my family fought about how no one calls me, but I have to call them. How they accuse me of chasing after guys. When they don't chase back. How my mom tells me no one wants to talk to me. How I tell my dad he's broken every single guy friendship they've ever known.
This just reminds me of the reason why I get depressed, my family.
So, I went into my room and cried and went to sleep after that. Nice night huh?
I wonder if this is Karma, or punishment for who I am. That my family makes me so depressed.

Gonna grip. Put it to my lip. Gonna sip. Gonna drip. My mind will tip tip tip.
Tomorrow baby, tomorrow. Might as well use it all up. I'm shaking, like a dog, waiting for the door to open.

This guy is still interested in teaching me to breakdance, which I want to learn so badly. This summer hopefully. How cool is that?

At church I ate this hot salad, watermelon, lots of soda, sticky rice, hot noodles, and ICECREAM CAKE!! It was my favorite type too :) The kind that has delicious chocolate crumb cookies inside!

Yo Blog. Wazzup?

Heyyy blog. What's up? Today is Saturday and i'm not doing anything this weekend...
Last couple days have been alright at school :D Yeah. This guy Jason is really amazing and so nice. Making me smile too much!!
After the day I last posted to you, I haven't done anything. Haven't felt the need to, which is quite interesting haha. Maybe Monday (bleh. Mondays are ugly in the morning) I suppose. Depends I guess. See, I don't do anything if I know I have a test or something important between 8th-9th hour. haha. Whatever.
Anyway, yeah so my days have been great. Like, I think God has actually answered my prayers. I think he's sent me an angel. Someone so nice.... The ideal person :'D WE'RE GONNA BE THE BESTEST FRIENDS EVERRRR!!!!!!
Friday I didn't have church youth night. So last night, I spent more than 2 hours talking to him and it was the best phone call ever.
This weekend I don't expect much to happen. Probably watch more anime dvds (or the rest of them) and talk more to people.
Monday I heard i'm getting a surprise from Jason? Lmfao. I think my life is made of him now. xD

D: I just tore my lip skin now it's bleeding. Lol, whenever my lip bleeds, I press it against my hand every like 5 seconds to see how much it's bleeding. So my hand get's all these blood spots I have to wash off. Weird~

So hey, I figured out why my school and other schools have had lockdowns. I know the factual reason, drug dogs. My teacher said so, so yeah.

Hey so today I did go somewhere. My family and I went to Salvation Army and I felt poor, but that's okay. My sister and I got an Austin Powers movie at S.A. so it's all good hahahaha. Then I waited in the car when they all went into Aldi's and then we went to visit my parents friends for a little bit.
Then we came home, I watched the movie, and I ate a cup of asian noodles. So steamy and asian cup of noodlicious!

I broke, but I broke happy.

This isn't good. I didn't break my promise did I? Because blog, it felt good. It felt dizzy. It felt fun. It felt happy. I felt so many things, and mmm was I glad. As my Facebook status said last night...

Aint no dogs gonna smell what I got. Aint nobody gonna see what I got. Aint a soul gonna hear the twist and pop. Sip sip sip. Ahh, my brain goes whoa and my heart just drops.

Yeah so that lasted from the end of 3/4th hr - 9th hr. With no aftereffects! That's why I like R0881TU5Sin.
Haha Yay for randomness?

Anyway, so today was awesome. Let's see. A recap of every hour or break...
Before school: Me and my friend Jason (who btw, is freaking amazing) met before school and I gave him a note :D And then we went to my locker, up the stairs, to my class and just talked before 1st hour.
1st Hr: Normal.
After 1st Hr H.W.H: Met with Jason again xD I have a feeling we're going to be good friends haha :D
2nd Hr Spanish II: That's when I asked to go to the bathroom to chug that crap down, made me want to puke.
After 2nd Hr: Met with Jason again :P HALLWAYBUDDIESOMFG
3rd/4th Hr: We had a lab in chemistry, which we all had to bring chemicals from home in to test. Everybody was doing their lab, and we all heard the loudest sound ever. Like, a gun being shot close to your ear. EVERYBODY jumped. Turns out, one of the guys made a (technically illegal) bomb and it exploded. It's called a "The Works Bomb." So the teacher got so mad, and he had to be taken to the office and such. I wonder how long he's going to be suspended, or if he'll be expelled, or fined? But the sound and scare made my stomach start hurting (I guess the stress and what was in my stomach from 2nd hour weren't working.)
After 3rd/4th Hr: AGAIN. Met with Jason. Hahaha.
Lunch: Rbbtsn started kicking in. Mmm. It starts with when you move your head fast, it's more blurry of a view than usual.
Gym: Yeah, I was well high. Though, I was able to play softball for the first time, and I hit the ball EVEN THOUGH I COULD LIKE, BARELY WALK WTF. Though, it got caught by some guy and then one of my teammates yelled "SHES JUST A GIRL!" xD
8th Hr Geometry: Still in the clouds. But when I walked in everyone was like SHH! to everyone because this girl fell asleep from last hour and the teacher said not to wake her to teach her not to sleep again. Hahah and she was still asleep for about 15 mins after my class started. Haha I felt so bad for her when she woke up, she was so confused. She woke up and was like "what.." to the person who finally woke her up. And then she looked around and she was like "Whoa O_O" Because my class was all staring at her from our seats. And we all laughed. XD
9th Hr English: Eh. Boring.

Yepp. So today was very nice. I think i've said too much about my day. Haha.

Mmm but i'm worried about me and Sean. I think my family might make it impossible for us to date at the moment so I don't know... :\

Happy thought. Oh wait no, I have another sad thing. So, since I play-kicked my mom yesterday because SHE did it to me, and to her only parents can play like that to kids, I had to bow down to my mom.
So I had to get on the floor in front of her. But before I started trying to bow, my sister, who was right next to my mom, while my mom was watching, kicked me in the stomach. It hurt for two hours after that... And my mom didn't say crap to her. So I had to bow still to my mom and say sorry for play kicking my mom. Ugh. I had to try like 4 times. And I used to wonder why I had such a low self esteem.

Yep lol. So, anyway. I hope my friend Jason and my other great friends and Sean can keep me going, because i'm pretty happy today! :D

Today I ate half a Mr. Rib and these little potato wedges that have all these spices on them :3 They're so cute, and exquisite! So friggin tasty in ketchup and exquisiteeeeeee!!

I could hear their smiles in the silence.

Hey hey! It's Monday Blog! WOO. Just kidding, today wasn't super great during school.
It was a regular Monday but it was a bit more social? I don't know, not really. I got home and I just felt this NEED to catch up with people, I love it when I feel I NEED to be social when i'm home. So I called up my "beyotches" aka, my good old friends from Auburn :) I talked to three of them on the phone, and all three of them told me I made their day.
I love and miss them so much.
Anyway, I also posted on their walls. I hope they talk to me once in a while, I sure do miss them :| I'm my old self with them haha.
Today i've talked tons with Ompo and other people! Love-love-lovedd it. I've made so many people happy today including myself. Such an accomplishment.

DISGUSTING THING ALSO TODAY. I hope my father doesn't read this. I found a porn magazine. I think it's his. T.H.E.F.U.H.K IT'S FROM 1991. LIKE WTHQHASAWIERJASR
My eyes, they're dead. I'm so disgusted. I hope I forget this.
Sorry to everyone xD

ANYWAYYY, I hope tomorrow is a good day and so on! I'VE EATEN SO MANY COOKIES TODAY! They were all chocolatey. And omnomnomlicious <3

A week to wait

I promised him I wouldn't do it. I promised I wouldn't for two weeks. This was a week ago, and i'm getting tired of not doing it. Maybe it's the boredom getting to my head, but it's no addiction no it's not. Not at all, for if it were an addiction, I would have already given in.
Given in to get high.
Not some pills or stuff. Syrup.
Anyway, tmi. I plan to go to the store and buy some next weekend. There's no after side effects when I do this kind of high, so it should be all good. Unlike last time with the pills.

This weekend was dumb. I didn't do anything fun. All I did was go to the library, and church twice. But yet, when I ask to go visit my boyfriend, you know, to see if I could make our relationship better... my family says no! They just don't want me seeing him.
They never want me seeing a guy. Except Shalom, but maybe that's because he was asian. I miss him so bad.
Who's Shalom? This guy I didn't technically date, but we honestly fell in love with eachother during the summer. I don't know if he loves me anymore, I doubt it. But I somehow still do... He's blocked me for months now, no communication with him for months now. Because, I suppose he's doing it for the good of us and his family. His family didn't like me I guess. I hope he misses me. He's in Minnesota.

Yep so, this weekend has been crap. This week will be the same routine. The same emptyness. Yet, with myself telling myself I have someone. Who I can't even freakin' see till probably next weekend.

I haven't eaten anything today but this cheesecake circle and cookies. Chocolate chip cookies my mom made... mmm. They don't really fill me up in my heart or stomach, but they're still pretty good. xD

Hewwo Blog

Hi there! On Thursday I went on a Field Trip to the Shedd Aquarium! That day was so much fun! I made new friends which i'm pretty proud of myself for. I also made a new friend yesterday, so every friend is great! :D Jason is one of the guys on the Field Trip and the next day I met this guy named Anjulion ahaha.
They're so funny. :)
I went to Youth Night at church last night and talked with Pastor Nounou about some stuff. Haha. He asked me about what I meant when I posted on FB I felt like I was dieing.
Today i'm going to the library... It should be alright.
Tomorrow I might see Sean. Maybe.
For breakfast I drank Hot Chocolate. Hot Chocolate is amazing.